[hopealwayz]

I am just going to tell my psychiatrist on Wednesday that maybe I’m too broken and beyond help and that it is impossible for me to experience happiness.

I’m debating on whether to post this or not. I’m so strongly disliked on this board, that even my requests for help turns into ambushes and gets closed down.

I’m such a worthless person that even among those who go to therapy that normally should be a safe place to open up turns into a judgeship and harsh comments session.

Oh well. I will just post.

[velcro003]

I don't think you are disliked at all. IF you were, so many people wouldn't respond to your posts, theyd just be ignored. I think people want to help you and see you improve.

I like you!

[hopealwayz]

Thank you.

Your post made me smile.

[hopealwayz]

When I made the appointment, they asked how long of an appointment I wanted and they offered a 60 minute therapy kinda session so I accepted that. With 60 minutes, he may have more time to listen instead of just writing prescriptions.
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[hopealwayz]

I told him that I was done with therapy after the owners of my ex-T stepped in and forced my termination. They felt that I was a liability. But wasn’t I doing the right thing by getting help and I was punished for it.

[hopealwayz]

I’m worthless. I’m just going to accept that I’m broken instead of pursuing the idea that my pain could heal.

I hate myself. Maybe I deserve the pain.

[hopealwayz]

I’m sorry I posted. Just ignore this thread. I don’t belong here anymore.

[SalingerEsme]

Hope, Maybe this PDoc will help you, so that you can feel happy and well over time.

Hope, I don't think you're disliked either. I wish I knew the right words to say to show you that you are not worthless, and I think velcro's right, that people just want to help you and want to see you feeling better. I like you too! and maybe this pdoc will be able to help you, I agree with your thought about a 60 minute session giving them time to actually hear you. Those 8-10 minute (if even that long) appointments I used to have when I was still seeing pdoc seemed way too short for him to know anything at all about me or my struggles at the time. It was barely enough time to write my prescriptions and scribble a couple notes! 60 minutes makes a lot more sense. I wish you all the best.

[Anne2.0]

I appreciate the way you are open and vulnerable and how difficult things are for you right now, and I really cheer for you and hope that a therapeutic relationship can help you. I'm really rooting for you with the new puppies and for your pdoc relationship.

But next time you start a thread, can you just say what is going on with you and what people can do to support you. I really hope your appt goes well tomorrow.

[SlumberKitty]

I hope your PDOC appointment goes well. 60 minutes sounds good. It gives more time to explain what's going on. I don't like 15 minute PDOC appointments but it's what I get. I know its just for meds though. I think it's good if it can be for meds and therapy.

[Taylor27]

I hope your appointment goes very well tomorrow. Everybody is here for support and that includes you Hope. I really love reading your posts please don't stop posting here hugs

[Crook32]

How did it go?