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Old Sep 01, 2018, 09:21 PM
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I am just going to tell my psychiatrist on Wednesday that maybe I’m too broken and beyond help and that it is impossible for me to experience happiness.

I’m debating on whether to post this or not. I’m so strongly disliked on this board, that even my requests for help turns into ambushes and gets closed down.

I’m such a worthless person that even among those who go to therapy that normally should be a safe place to open up turns into a judgeship and harsh comments session.

Oh well. I will just post.
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Old Sep 01, 2018, 09:25 PM
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I don't think you are disliked at all. IF you were, so many people wouldn't respond to your posts, theyd just be ignored. I think people want to help you and see you improve.

I like you!
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Old Sep 01, 2018, 09:34 PM
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Thank you.

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Old Sep 01, 2018, 09:37 PM
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When I made the appointment, they asked how long of an appointment I wanted and they offered a 60 minute therapy kinda session so I accepted that. With 60 minutes, he may have more time to listen instead of just writing prescriptions.
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Old Sep 01, 2018, 09:44 PM
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I told him that I was done with therapy after the owners of my ex-T stepped in and forced my termination. They felt that I was a liability. But wasn’t I doing the right thing by getting help and I was punished for it.
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Old Sep 01, 2018, 10:23 PM
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I’m worthless. I’m just going to accept that I’m broken instead of pursuing the idea that my pain could heal.

I hate myself. Maybe I deserve the pain.
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Old Sep 01, 2018, 11:21 PM
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I’m sorry I posted. Just ignore this thread. I don’t belong here anymore.
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Old Sep 03, 2018, 02:22 AM
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Hope, Maybe this PDoc will help you, so that you can feel happy and well over time.
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Old Sep 03, 2018, 06:32 PM
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Hope, I don't think you're disliked either. I wish I knew the right words to say to show you that you are not worthless, and I think velcro's right, that people just want to help you and want to see you feeling better. I like you too! and maybe this pdoc will be able to help you, I agree with your thought about a 60 minute session giving them time to actually hear you. Those 8-10 minute (if even that long) appointments I used to have when I was still seeing pdoc seemed way too short for him to know anything at all about me or my struggles at the time. It was barely enough time to write my prescriptions and scribble a couple notes! 60 minutes makes a lot more sense. I wish you all the best.
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Old Sep 04, 2018, 11:17 AM
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I appreciate the way you are open and vulnerable and how difficult things are for you right now, and I really cheer for you and hope that a therapeutic relationship can help you. I'm really rooting for you with the new puppies and for your pdoc relationship.

But next time you start a thread, can you just say what is going on with you and what people can do to support you. I really hope your appt goes well tomorrow.

Last edited by sabby; Sep 07, 2018 at 01:38 PM. Reason: Edited to bring within posting guidelines.
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Old Sep 04, 2018, 11:27 AM
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I hope your PDOC appointment goes well. 60 minutes sounds good. It gives more time to explain what's going on. I don't like 15 minute PDOC appointments but it's what I get. I know its just for meds though. I think it's good if it can be for meds and therapy.
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Old Sep 04, 2018, 01:02 PM
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I hope your appointment goes very well tomorrow. Everybody is here for support and that includes you Hope. I really love reading your posts please don't stop posting here hugs
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