[doyoutrustme]

So my nightmare finally is coming true.

He’s going to ease it out and do med management. He’s my first and only therapist. I don’t want another one. I probably need another one but I’d rather avoid the pain that comes with getting attached to a therapist in the first place. I’m cycling through stages of grief. This was not a good time for this. My mom is Dxed with pancreatic cancer and it’s the brca kind and I’m brca pos which makes this impossible to cope with

Fml

[SlumberKitty]

(((hugs))) I'm sorry this is happening to you, and especially right now when things are really extra hard. It is hard to find a new therapist. It takes a while in my opinion to go through the grief of losing a T especially one that worked well with the client. No real advice just (((hugs)))

[nottrustin]

I am sorry!! Is he stopping right off or is he giving you some notice before stopping?

[doyoutrustme]

He said he would do it gradually. Still instead of dealing with my issues at hand I have to deal with the whole new set of problems he gave me. I just wanted support in a tough time, not to tackle my severe trust issues.

[doyoutrustme]

2 days till my first termination sesh. :’(

[Taylor27]

Hugs very hard

[starfishing]

So sorry you're dealing with this on top of everything else--it's awful and so frustrating. How long of a termination process is there going to be?

[doyoutrustme]

I don’t know I guess I’ll find out on Monday. I keep randomly crying about this

I’m sorry DYTM.

There’s not much I can think of to say to help, other than I know how you feel, and you will be able to move past it.

I cried for weeks when I terminated with my therapist. It still hurts many months later, but it’s a process and I do feel functional and okay most days.

[doyoutrustme]

My appointment is tomorrow and all I am is angry rn

[growlycat]

Does t know about everything going on for you right now? I’m so sorry this does seem an abrupt transition

[doyoutrustme]

Yes he does. He was in a situation where there was never a right time and finally told me. He knows I have trust issues and have refused to see a separate therapist in the past. I would complain that it feels like he was trying to get rid of me. So now I know why. Grr.

Also I’m self sabotaging right now cause my appointment is in 8 hours and I don’t want to take Ativan because frankly I wannabe a difficult patient tomorrow to punish him.

[starfishing]

I hope your appointment goes well today.

[LonesomeTonight]

I also hope your session goes well today. I hope he can agree to see you a bit longer as a therapist, especially considering all you're dealing with right now.

[doyoutrustme]

He is willing to see me longer but I’m not. As a pseudo compromise I’m going to monthly med management which will be the length of a therapy session.

I’m so depressed rn.