[Lrad123]

Usually I feel stressed out about something related to my relationship with my T or something that was stirred up in our last session within the first 3-4 days after I see him. Then I journal about it, and frequently send him an angsty email, which just helps get it off my chest and gives us a starting point for our next session. But it’s been 4 days and I feel absolutely nothing. No angst, no positive thoughts, no negative thoughts. Nothing. Totally blank. Not even a hint of anything. This week I’ll start seeing him 2x/week and I’m afraid I’ll have absolutely nothing to say. I’m feeling unworthy of 2x/week. We do psychodynamic therapy and he’ll wait for me to start. Not looking forward to the awkward silences. Any help is appreciated.

[downandlonely]

Why are you going to start seeing him two times a week?

[Waterloo12345]

Talk about the possibility of self sabotage- you feel unworthy of 2 therefore your subconscious is closing down everything to show you are unworthy of 2. Talk about why you feel unworthy of a caring professional investing his time, emotions, intelligence, analysis in you.

[LonesomeTonight]

Sometimes the sessions where I go in unsure of what to talk about end up being the most useful ones. I just start talking about whatever, and we can end up on something really helpful. If you don't know where to start, you could just talk about how your week went, what you did, etc. Or even just say you're not sure what to talk about, and see if he's willing to ask you something (I know you said he lets you lead, but if you specifically ask him to direct you, he might be willing).

[ECHOES]

Maybe the fact that you are going to start seeing him twice a week has stirred something up?

[Elio]

Talk about not having much to talk about. Talk about the silence being awkward. Don't talk, and sit in the silence as long as you need. The silence is communicating. Doing psychodynamic means you can say whatever flowing and rambling thoughts that are in your head. You can even talk about the radio silence if that is what is going on. The silence might simply be that whatever part was all angsty about your T now feels a bit heard and maybe less alone because they know they will get to see your T 2 x next week.

It's ok, whatever you do is ok. I often struggle with topics on my Tuesday, yet some how that session seems to be the most pivotal of my week - most the time something comes up especially if I don't try to block it.

[susannahsays]

I would go in and say pretty much what you said here.

[giggles6211]

Here are some topics you can explore when you don't know what else to say- 9 Tips for Awkward Silences in Therapy | Psychology Today

I can't believe I'm saying it, but I am becoming more comfortable with silence in therapy. What I haven't become comfortable with yet is "spitting out" the nudges I feel in my silence. My therapist said she can always see on my face that I have a thought, and yet I struggle sharing it usually. Those nudges will make for some great discussions probably when I am ready to share more spontaneously.

[Fuzzybear]

[SlumberKitty]

When I have trouble starting talking, I usually just talk about my week and then something comes up that I can get deeper into. Maybe that would work for you? Kit