Its Monday

nottrustin · Feb 11, 2019, 04:02 PM

While I miss T every day. It's been a couple of weeks since it really made me want to cry. Today as I am preparing mentally and making a list of what to talk to Emdr T it hit me. Today is Monday. Today I should be meeting with T. For that couple if years I always met with her after work. I always knew that no matter what was going on she was there to support me 100% of the way. I could always be the true me and we had so much in common. She would always give me a warm hug and makes things okay even if only for that moment.

EMDR t is great but she isnt T. We are so different and because of all she has accomplished and is always so positive and happy, I feel like a failure. I doubt she feels the same way but I do. It is just not the same. I genuinely feel she wants to help and we get along great in the office and she has helped me so much. I just wish I didn't like I failed in my life career wise and in life.

Tomorrow we are going to start working on IFS which makes me feel like wimp.

Dang I really need her hug right now