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Grand Magnate
Member Since Nov 2010
Location: Crimson cattery
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#781
T, I was so happy and excited all day. I am going to have you AND Pdoc... but my joy set my son off and now I am down again. I keep thinking about the hug and how it made me feel. I also keep hearing you tell me “you are really good at disassociation”. Is it Monday yet.
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
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#782
Nice sesh dude.
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Luna's offical mini me.
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Location: Cafe Nervosa.
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#783
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#784
Dear T,
When I feel your presence, it calms me down. Thank you. --EG |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Nov 2010
Location: Crimson cattery
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#785
T, thanks for replying even though your reply doesn’t feel right. I think I am just misreading it because I wanted a different answer. Something shifted when you were away for a week. The hug last session sent the emotions right over the top. I’m sad I don’t know how to connect with you and how to be present with you. I am sad and frustrated I have to wait so long between chances to try again. I bounce from dissociative to hyper vigilant without any rest in between. I want to be in that in between space, that balance spot. I am feeling let down by your reply and angry at myself for feeling let down... but it is all a big circle.
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
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#786
How does it make you feel?
Not your thoughts about it. Not your reaction to how I feel about it. What is your initial personal emotional reaction to the concept itself, before your therapist brain kicks in? |
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Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
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#787
Oh and your hair is getting long again. You look like Philip Pullman. And I know you will have cut it by the next time I see you. You always do.
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#788
I almost walked out of the session today. You weren't very nice to me there in the beginning.
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#789
ok, how do I even talk about this splitting that is going on, you know about, I know about it - I can't seem to reconcile it and I'm too embarrassed that it has/is happening.
Why do I have to be so messed up at such a young age? And why can't you just be mommy, letting me live there for a while? What will you think if I actually do bring in that chair? Can I trust you if I bring it in? I hate this. |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
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#790
Did you move your chair???
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Aug 2017
Location: A house
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#791
I bet as much as you love snow, you are *****ing about this blizzard. I wish i could text and complain about it with you, like we used to God I miss texts from you. I don't get that happy feeling anymore when I get a text alert.
I miss you like crazy still. __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
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Comfy Sedation
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Location: the woods
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#792
remember when I texted you "I'm all growed up" and you texted back that that gave u chills s
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Magnate
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Location: UK
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#793
I'm in love with you again this week. Sigh.
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Luna's offical mini me.
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#794
Day 6
Week 1 is nearly over. I went 30 mins into my normal session time without even realizing it. I did gym and I was mainly happy today, just stupidly tired.
Possible trigger:
13 days, 14 hours, 58 minutes and 51 seconds... __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Apr 11, 2019 at 02:20 PM.. |
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
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#795
Dear T,
I totally peeked a couple times to make sure you didn't have your eyes open during the 3-minute meditation/breathing thing. And you didn't. Wonder if you checked, too? (Probably not, if you do this daily, like you said.) Love, LT |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Nov 2010
Location: Crimson cattery
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#796
T, I hate my brain right now. If I am brave I am going to have a lot to talk about Monday and maybe some strange requests. I want to have you call me and leave me a message telling me you won’t hurt me but I don’t know when you are leaving for the weekend... and honestly, I don’t know how a I would respond to it. Hopefully I will have a new project to show you.
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Grand Magnate
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#797
Baby T
Ugh stupid winter ruining everything. At least I still can go tomorrow. Hopefully I'm able to get in and read the letter right away instead of wasting time and not getting around to it. __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
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Grand Member
Member Since Mar 2013
Location: USA
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#798
You’re really messing with my head
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Poohbah
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: Canada
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#799
It’s Thursday and I haven’t emailed or texted you yet this week. I guess it’s been a quiet week. I’ll see what I can drum up over the weekend for you
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Grand Magnate
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#800
T I am really missing you. Today all of a sudden I thought about you and a huge rush of sadness came over me about all the things on life you are not here for. Then my daughter was contacted by my brothers family. You are the only person who truly understands how hard cutting him out of our life has been. He is so toxic for me but has beautiful children. Plus the signs of your presence has stopped.
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