[coolibrarian]

I'm back to work, after two weeks in bed with pneumonia. I've also had some other health issues, compounding the situation with my health.

I was home from work for TWO WEEKS, and are you wondering how many people asked me how I'm doing? ONE person sent me a "get well card," and no one else has said anything at all. So, I thinking about retirement again, even though I really don't want to retire yet.

Those 2 weeks in bed really showed that it wouldn't be a good idea to retire now, as I was very depressed. I was also physically ill, which didn't help. Every issue played off of every other issue, and I felt like I wanted to sleep forever; I am fully aware that this desire to sleep forever is one of my signals that I am deeply depressed.

I'm not sure why I'm even posting this today. Maybe because I can think of three people who will surely respond, and a few others who may respond.

It really sucks when no one talks to you and doesn't tell you why.

[guilloche]

*hugs* - I don't often check this forum, but I've been checking to see if you had any updates.

Congrats on getting back to work. How are you feeling, physically? Is the pneumonia finally gone? I know, it seems like it can linger on *forever* - and that by itself is depressing, even if you don't have anything else going on.

I'm so sorry that nobody at work asked about you Is there any possible way that they may have felt like they'd be prying to mention it? I was out for a few days once to have some "girl stuff" (*embarrassed look!*) dealt with. I told the people that I was working with that I had to have a "minor procedure" done, which was true. The project manager, a guy, asked me (very nicely!) what was wrong.... oops! I literally said, "um, well, it's... you know... girl stuff..." and he backed up SO fast... like, "Oh my gosh, I understand, I'm so sorry for asking, never mind, I hope everything is OK!" - it was nice of him, but awkward. I actually wish it were more socially acceptable to talk about that stuff, to avoid those weird moments!

Anyway - I'm sorry things are rough. I'm struggling a bit here too, finding it really hard to find people to connect with. I've been thinking a lot lately how, if something happened to me, I'd really be in trouble - as I'm really quite isolated.

*hugs*

[SlumberKitty]

Hi Cool. It's good that you are aware that your desire to sleep forever means that you are deeply depressed. It's good that you are aware of that. I'm sorry that your coworkers didn't ask how you were. It sucks to feel like you weren't missed. I'm assuming that you are feeling better from the pneumonia. How are the other health issues? Did any of them get better when the pneumonia got better? When do you see your T next? Could you let T know that you are struggling right now? Keep writing here if you wish. I'm listening. HUGS to you my friend, Kit

[coolibrarian]

Kit, so many questions to answer, but it's ok. The other symptoms lapsed for a few days at the beginning of my pneumonia, but then came roaring back. I don't know when I will see T again; I have to call her. T knows that I am struggling because I sent her a rather long email, explaining my depression and also that I can't talk on the phone because it makes me cough.

I will keep writing here.

[SlumberKitty]

Cool, oh that sucks not knowing when you are going to see your T when you are so depressed. Can you do something nice for yourself? Something comforting and soothing? Sometimes I take a hot bath with candles and a nice scent and that is comforting and soothing to me. HUGS Kit

Hugs, cool. I'm sorry no one checked on you. I like the above idea of a soothing warm bath with candles. I hope you are feeling better and can talk to t soon.

[velcro003]

That is a terrible feeling, like no one cares how you are doing. I’m sorry. I’m glad you are feeling better, at least physically.

Do you think your co-workers don’t want to pry? Still, that is a lengthy absence!

[coolibrarian]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Cool, oh that sucks not knowing when you are going to see your T when you are so depressed. Can you do something nice for yourself? Something comforting and soothing? Sometimes I take a hot bath with candles and a nice scent and that is comforting and soothing to me. HUGS Kit

The last time I tried to take a hot bath, I almost had to call 911 to help me get out the tub!

Thanks for trying.

[coolibrarian]

Originally Posted by velcro003

That is a terrible feeling, like no one cares how you are doing. I’m sorry. I’m glad you are feeling better, at least physically.

Do you think your co-workers don’t want to pry? Still, that is a lengthy absence!

I've worked here since 1985. Wouldn't you think that SOMEbody would inquire as to my health? Not even people I consider friends have done so! It is very hurtful to me.

[Rive.]

I'm sorry that your colleagues and friends did not bother to reach out to you. That must be so painful.

I don't think retirement is the solution though, as it would make you even more isolated... And the money can always come in handy.

[sarahsweets]

I have not worked in many years so Im using my previous working and my husbands' working to comment on this. I swear- years ago it seemed like your employer and fellow coworkers were a lot more invested in each other. Not BFF's but friendly enough to check up on your or ask how you are doing. Heck I took a job at an answering service while pregnant(they hadn't realized) and when they did realize they threw me a small baby shower. I don't mean to sound old(I'm 44) but it truly feels like people now do not care one bit about anyone except for those they love. It seems like nobody wants to get involved or maybe its that no one wants to seem like they give two sh*ts. I dont get it. I dont think you should take it personally at all. I really think its about them and not you.

[nottrustin]

Hugs Cool. I am glad you are feeling better enough to T least go back to work. I am sorry people at work didnt seem to care or miss you. I know that has to be hard and painful. If it helps. We care and worry about you here. Even though you are back to work make sure to continue to get plenty of rest and care for youself. Also please keep on the Drs. About your other medical issues. Now that you are a bit better can you possibly talk on the phone with T?