Couch 194: The Floral Couch

Point is, you’re not playing games. I don’t know if he is, but you’re not.

Unrelated: I am crabby today. I didn’t sleep well and I would like to eat for energy, but that’s a bit difficult to do when gluten-free.

OMG! A huge well done, I'm so proud of my little baby!

I agree.. and I am sorry your are having a rough day.

Closing went fine. I now own two houses. Hopefully not for long. Need to get some work done on the old house to get it ready for listing.

I'm having surgery as soon as insurance approves it.

Maybe you could try keeping some GF protein bars?

And I got the link just for you:

Wow! Thought for sure it would be something they could just leave there. Is it because it is causing you pain? Good luck Artie! Hope insurance doesn’t give you a hard time at all.

And it a slight turn of events.. t just texted me and apologized for cancelling today.. citing stomach issues and then said I could see another t in the practice if I was having problems staying safe. I have not responded yet. I will for sure, just shocked I guess.

Healed you haven't done anything wrong. Reaching out to a T when you're in crisis mode is perfectly okay and you're definitely not expecting too much.

Have you decided if you're going to see him tomorrow?

If a mucocele is full of mucus and the appendix burst—I imagine that would not be good.

Do you have any idea of a time frame, art? And can they do it by laparoscopy?

Approx how soon do you hear back with confirmation?

My T referred to our session today as us "grappling." It's an odd visual, and I'm not sure I agree with her word choice. Which is maybe her whole point, that I keep arguing with her in a low-key way. I kind of like that she doesn't back down, even though on some level I want her to just agree with me. I keep pushing her away because things between us keep activating childhood stuff. It's like I know in my head that she wants to help, but my emotional reaction is to shut down and/or run away.

That sounds scary, Art. I'm glad H decided to go with you.

Good morning Couchies! HUGS Artie for your surgery. Hopefully insurance won't keep you waiting long. Insurance can be such a pain to deal with. I didn't get my walk in today because it was really windy outside this morning. It's possibly going to rain but the wind might blow the clouds away. I'm worrying about my job. With the new company coming in and buying us, I just don't know if I will have a job...I'm sure they already have an accounting/finance department. I've applied at two places. Well technically one place, two positions. I don't want to panic and do a bunch of applying but those two jobs were pretty good so I thought I'd take a shot before I even knew about this company buying us. I'm trying not to worry but the uncertainty does take a toll. This is threatening my no-SH even though I'm trying to not let it. Usually the anticipation of something is worse than the actual event, so I'm just trying to plan in case. Look at my finances, stuff like that. HUGS Kit

Healed - to me, this guy is messing with you -whether intentionally or not. I would be livid.
Art - hope the surgery goes well. One of the many insane wrong things about us medicine is that insurance companies call the shots and not clients and the mds.

ATAT - have you tried Trader Joes GF flatbreads? (but be aware - they have both g/f and regular right next to each other and without paying attention it is easy to grab the wrong bag). I find them quite useful to keep around and easy to eat with a hard boiled egg or cheese or other g/f protein.

That's good of him--maybe it's a case of something he ate last night so he figures he'd be available tomorrow? Are you planning to just see him then?

I think today's session went well, maybe aside from my breaking down sobbing at the end of session and T trying to figure out what I needed. I said I thought it was to know he wasn't weirded out by any of the transference stuff (even though only part of session was about that) and he assured me that he wasn't, that he'd tell me if he was. But that he got the sense there was something else that I needed right then and I said maybe, but I didn't know what it was. Which is a slightly awkward place to end on...at least we laughed a bit together when I was going over to pay. He was starting to do the invoice and had said last week I may need to remind him of new fee, so I just randomly yelled out, "150!....Uh...for the fee." T: "Got it!" Me: "You're looking at the clock right now going, 'no, 1:25!' Because...it's the time. Not 1:50. I...I'm just going to stop talking." We both laughed, and his seemed like a really warm, genuine laugh. Maybe that made me feel more OK than his reassurance even. Still trying to figure out what I feel.

Healed. Your therapist is an asshole.

Hugs, Art. Hope you get approval from your insurance soon. Do you need to wait at all for the shingles to heal?

Sounds good. Glad it went well. I'm sure he isn't weirded out. Remember they get lots of training on this stuff. He's a big boy. He can handle it and tell you if its not ok. You are fine.

Hopefully you can make more progress with anxiety or whatever else is important to you. You can't change the past but you can change the future. Good luck

Hugs. I lost track in your LT thread a few weeks ago. I don’t comment in there. But I do read it. I’ll have to go read the last few sessions.

I'm not well. I'm mentally and emotionally spiraling but making sure I take care of my daily responsibilities and trying to ignore it.

Hopefully this wed class will be a good distraction

Art, hope the surgery goes well and you have a smooth recovery.

My phone interview this morning turned into a meeting scheduled for Saturday. So that’s one tomorrow and one Saturday.

I can't seem to find us a place to live Luckily, the new owner is giving us a 14 day rent back. I'm just so sad. I have to say goodbye to my dream house.