Couch 195: The Galaxy couch

The rest of it makes out he did the ethical thing and supported MY decision to end. ARRRGGHHH!. He appears blameless in the whole thing. Now I want to go on Friday and Hear his response to the other letter I sent with the book.

Here is the bit that pisses me off all those texts begging to come back my gp writing to him

Your T is an *** . He's not blameless- he's just taking the easy way out.

I am going to take this letter to my appt and ask my gp if she remembers me asking to come back. Would that be petty?

That's lovely artie.



I'm first in line for a Christmas jumper.

Not petty. You also have the text messages too as proof.

Like Una said I don't think you would be starting straight from the start with a new T. You have made a lot a progress.

Actually I don't I deleted them in a fit of anger.

lots of hugs, BCM. i'm so sorry you're going through this.

Thanks! I have 4 more rounds done now, and have barely started another. I'm loving it already. This is probably my top favorite pattern at the moment. I am slightly considering getting my etsy shop going again.....

It's like we never sat in the same room together or he didn't remember basic things. He said that he suggested a break but he actually said keep coming or stop therapy all together i was the one who suggested a break.

I don't even know if it's worth getting upset bout

I woke up about 45 minutes ago feeling ravenous. Ate a bowl of cereal, then another bowl of cereal, now drinking a glass of OJ. As I was eating the first bowl I wrote down the dream I had awoken from, and I really really want to call L and schedule a session to work on it with her. I don't want to go back to therapy but... damn that woman is so skilled at dream work!!! I know how to work with it on my own of course but I feel like this one wants her input...

And dang it I am still hungry! Ooh I know I want some mashed potatoes with pepper jack cheese melted on top... mmmm!! This recovery stuff requires more calories than I am used to eating...

Good morning Couch!

It's my birthday today, so of course I woke up with a headache. Took tablets, and they took the edge off, but it's still there. Must drink more water.

Happy birthday, Lost! I hope your headache goes away quickly!!

off to make the mashed potatoes....

Happy birthday Lost hope your day gets better

I was going to make mashed potatoes but iam still feeling unwell and all that time when I can just have toast and go to bed

BCM, I'm really sorry you're going through all this with your T. It does sound like he's just trying to cover himself and not admit any fault. And that he's gaslighting you a bit, too. Having gone through the major rupture with ex-MC (where he was also gaslighting me), I know how painful it can be. I hope the meeting Friday will help somewhat.

Happy Birthday, Lost! Hope you feel better soon.

I'm wide awake. I may as well turn the light on and do some more crocheting, it's not like I can't just take a nap later...

Happy birthday Lost!!

Happy Birthday Lost.

I’m getting ready to leave to go start my trial work day. I’ll have to keep my face out of my phone so have a good day everyone. I’ll come back later hopefully with news that it went well.

Well I went back to sleep haha. Had another dream that pretty clearly cautions me against calling L to work on the first one. My psyche is an interesting place...

Major-ish dental work today, root canal stuff. Not looking forward to it. See you guys on the other side.