Couch 195: The Galaxy couch

Oh stop it!

You already put your six years in! You dont start over, you pick up where you left off!

Why would you start over? Its like learning to cook or something.

Eta - dont make me pull out all my dumb metaphors!

Thanks! My favorite grandma taught me many years ago and she was so patient with me, a little of it rubbed off on me I guess! She used to buy clear glass ash trays at the dime store and glue my ugly little crochet circles on the bottom and display them in her house even tho no one smoked. I sure loved her!!

No it's a new person, I don't know them I have to make sure they are safe, I can't just sit in a room with someone and not think they are going to attack me either physically or verbally.

This is my problem I can't just start from where I left off, do you mean therapy topic wise? I need to make sure the person is trustworthy and they must go through the boundary pushing etc before I even tell them about my mother

Okay, but when i think of where i was my first years with my t, compared to where i am now, or where i was a few years ago, i can see the difference.

I can see the difference in how you are here. So are you giving yourself enough credit? I could be wrong of course.

This why I find it hard keeping friends if it starts to get to beyond the weather and what the council is doing I just run away

Whose rules are those? FLING them off!

This is why its safe for me to love you to pieces - you are a million miles away.

Plus i have this cool hat.

I think I see what you mean , I have picked up enough self knowledge to know what is safe and what feels right. So instead of seeing people as entirely new just jump in where I am comfortable and adjust the seating? Is that what you are saying.

Just because one dog bit me doesn't mean all dogs bite, right? You just play with them and watch for warning signs

Yes youre not a newborn kitten.

Eta - you are at SOME disadvantage cuz of how this t just pushed you out. But youve also been able to take care of yourself by speaking up here and to him, making your needs known, and that is HUGE, really.

So - listen to THAT. Listen to yourself and stay in t. When i left my t last year, the only picture i had in my mind was of a cat escaping out his door - so i took THAT to heart, that that cat was me!

But you keep telling your t you werent done, you were just getting started. So respect that.

I do love that hat even though I don't know who Lee von cleef is.

Same here!

Call the midwife!

The yt channel that has my favourite Martian also has the Cisco Kid I remember my brother and I could never wait to visit my grandmother because the tv station there played the Cisco Kid and Zorro, we got into all sorts of trouble because there were 'z's everywhere. We always had to clean them up but it didn't stop the fun

I'm sure I made mistakes as a parent. But at least I didn't make the same mistakes my own parents did!

You know I would never have spoken up before and I think I know what I want from T now whereas before I was just trying doors without asking for keys. I know what keys to ask for now, I think.

I think that's the best we can hope for as a parent.

Sargent Garcia in Zorro, and Pancho in the Cisco Kid, were my two role models, unfortunately! They were chubby, i was chubby, and i was the sidekick to my good looking older brother.

My exT posted his letter to me on Thursday so it should get here today. I did ask him in the text to explain how the last session happened and we terminated as I am still unsure and I want his versions of events.

Just like a pot a watched for postman is always late.

The weather is mad. We have an out of season cyclone.

These apps spoil us for sure, where you can watch the delivery guys make their stops on their way to your house. Now they even take a picture of the package lying in front of my door, which is kind of freaky. Im glad its not a selfie, that would be weird!

I don't have an app just a clock. They are doing that photo thing here as well on the day of your delivery you get a text asking for option a or b whether you will be home or not to receive these are sent at 6:30 am I sent one back straight away saying I would be home and got a text saying unfortunately the delivery guy had already been and I need to go to the post office to pick up which is funny because the delivery guys don't start work til 7 am

I got the letter. It is just lies and ********. He made it a handover letter to another T he stated we did emdr we did one session of emdr. He said we unpacked the other therapist thing he did a lot of talking and I just sat there. I am over it all now. I can't believe this. Well I can believe this I am speechless. I haven't read all of it it's probably just all lies.