Ugh

Hope your T session and caseworker visit go well

We have three possible placements for my son so I think that is going well... fingers crossed.
T did not go as planned/hoped but does it ever? It was a good session I am just exhausted and not wanting to wait a whole week to see him again. He liked the project and was glad I was choosing to bring it back home for my own self care.

Sounds encouraging for your son--I'll keep fingers crossed, too. Agreed about T never going as planned (see: my session today). Glad you had a good session--is it possible to see him sooner? Did you end up trying the lap/shoulder pad?

I have brought up seeing him more frequently but have never gotten in or gotten a clear no... will be bringing it up again. He was very pleased with the lap pad. He saw it as me trying to bring the safety and security I feel in his office/presence into other places in my life. He said all the symbolism didn’t bother him a bit as it all came from his office. He even shared the meaning behind some of the pictures I brought into it. He said if there had been a picture of his home or things from his home on it that would be totally different but anything from his office that helps me feel secure is fair game. He was also surprised that I had noticed and chosen symbols that were important to him. I don’t ask him any personal questions and stay far away from his personal life unless he offers. He seemed happy that I did have an interest in him as a person and we had a good talk about my not feeling comfortable asking him about personal things or even professional choices... he almost didn’t set something up in his office today but was worried the change would bother me. I said I would have just went with it uncomfortably. He was surprised that I would not ask about it even though I would be very curious and it would bug me. Which brought him back to working on trust and how it is a different process with me.

The lap pad did return home as T saw very clearly that it was to help me feel close to him when I was having a hard time. H said he was glad that T understood what it was about and that I felt validated. Dunno. T let me know of another upcoming week that he will be away and half jokingly asked if that meant another project... so then we got to talk about the projects and what they mean and do for me. He seemed happy/excited that I could use them to communicate with him and is very open to our “show and tell” as he calls it. He did admit to being a bit puzzled by my choice of working in fabric so we talked about how others were disrespectful of my space when I would draw so not my drawings have very little symbolism in them. I started sewing about the time that I started working with him to fabric is prestine... no one has messed it up. He was happy I found something for when I can’t do words yet.