T left the room in front of me today which is unusual.

As, she got downstairs she opened the door and as I passed she stepped back and let out a cry of shock as she tripped on something left in her hallway.
. I stood on the step and said "are you OK!?"
In that moment I felt like the adult and her the child.

Earlier in session she had handed me her holiday dates.

I manage to have the courage and tell her that though intellectually I understand holidays. It still feels like I'm angry at her leaving me "

I didn't react to the feelings, I spoke about them in a mature manner.

T said" of course you feel that way. You don't have many attachments, to people but you have a, secure attachment to me so of course it feels like a loss"

I added "but it feels babyish. I should just know you're going on holiday full stop"

T said "but everyone has, those feelings if they're honest with themselves"

I said "do they? I bet they'd just think - have a nice holiday.

She added" yes, but there's another layer of feelings beneath that, that many won't feel"

I replied "you don't?!"

T said " Say a friend is moving up north. You'd feel those feelings"

I added "you wouldn't? *

T said" why do you think I used That example? "

I felt she was being vunrable in that moment. Made me feel closer to her.

I just felt she was a little more vunrable . Maybe the Weather getting too her.

[Omers]

I’m glad you were able to have this experience. My current T is the first T I have worked with that has shared that kind of vulnerability and I have found it very helpful.
My T is out of the office quite a bit and he brought it up last session to. He said that for some of his clients it is no big deal but he knows that for me it is hard. He acknowledged that it would be better for me if he could provide me with more consistency and be out of the office less. He also warned me that my discomfort with his being gone would likely get worse before it got better. I know he has a hard time because he lives so far away from his grandkids and misses them.

[SlumberKitty]

I feel you. With former T I always felt a sense of loss and abandonment, and being forgotten about when she would go on vacation. Intellectually I knew it was just a vacation but the feelings were what the feelings were. I'm glad you had that good interaction with your T. It sounded positive. HUGS Kit

[Lonelyinmyheart]

Really glad you had a nice session. I have a hard time with a T going on holiday and my current T is going mid-August. She is very understanding as well but I struggle to voice the pain of abandonment etc. The last session before the break is always awful for me because I just shut down.