Couch 208: The Practical Couch

Hugs, WFS... It's good you got it checked out and are having it biopsied right away. When will you get results? Hopefully it's something they can just remove with no other treatment needed. Love that he gave you the pink band-aid!

Are we going to have to have the talk about inferred vs. implied again?

WFS, you are having quite the year.

I am so angrry at my stubborness.
My internal dialogue atm
If i cant see exT i wont talk to anyone!

YOU HAVE ALL THIS **** IN YOUR HEAD!

It will go away eventually.

NOW YOU ARE BEING OBTUSE.

HUGS WFS....I've had to have some stuff removed too that was in the precancerous/cancerous stage. I have a pretty hefty scar on my arm (one actually not from SH-heh) and one on my back on the top under my neck from having stuff removed. It's a pain but I'm so glad you got it checked. I hope that it is contained and hasn't spread. HUGS Kit

((Wfs)))

I think they say sharp knives are really safer because they cut and don't bounce.

I hope it goes well.

So not looking forward to 4 days off. On one hand it'll be nice to not work, but mostly I have no plans and don't see how I can sleep my way entirely through it. If I do, I might seriously be impressed/also hate myself immensely.

Not to mention the boards will be super slow.

Whew, I finished the paper that I've been struggling to get started today. I'm glad I asked my instructor for clarification on it because it definitely helped. Now I'm done with all my assignments for ths rest of the class besides participation posts each week. The class ends in January so that takes some of the load off to not worry about that.

H is at the ER again... I hope this isn't a pattern like last time.

Thanks, Couchies. I really do appreciate the hugs and thoughts. The doctor said I caught it really early and it will be just fine. I'll get the biopsy results Friday or Monday, and he says I'll be moved to the top of the priority list so I'll get in next week to have it removed.

I'm actually not too worried about it. But I don't have time for this and I don't want to deal with it, and I think I am finally just good and mad about every stupid thing that's happened this year. Furious. I had a bout of angry crying in the kitchen after the boys left for their evening activities. Good and mad might stand me in good stead. I am tired of seeing the bright side of people and situations. This is absolutely flipping ridiculous.

Is there a sci fi series that doesnt have humans traipsing through the universe walking on the grass, ignoring the dont feed the bears sign and claiming ignorance of local laws and customs in the name of exploration? I love Star Trek and Stargate and others i cant remember the names of i am just sick of the recurringthemes

I have changed mymeds around i think it may have been a bad idea. I think my gp is giving me enough rope.

I'll be around on the boards, Velcro. Maybe not as much tomorrow afternoon/evening, but other days.

Only an hour and a half more of work and then I’m off until Monday!

No T for a week and a half, though :/

ETA I’ll be around over the holiday too!

I have a phone call with T in a few and I'm nervous. I'm not sure what to talk about and my kids are all home.

It's the last day of the workweek. I'm looking forward to 4 days off but I'm hoping my depression doesn't take more of a dive. I don't want to end up at the ER or worse yet hospitalized over Thanksgiving. I'm hoping the time off of work will be more restorative than anything. Thanksgiving Day itself should be fine. Just me and mom and dad, and the dog and kitties of course. The other days there are some activities planned. I don't want to be too busy but I also want to get things done. I got the bills paid at work early today so that was my big project for the day. Not enough $$ and always too many bills. It's my least enjoyable task. I see T tonight. I hope I can tell her about being suicidal and stuff like that. I haven't SH-ed which is good, I guess. And I did reach out last night to two friends again via text and one friend in person. So I'm really trying to connect with people right now. And this morning I told a coworker that I was struggling, but also that I'm doing everything in my power to be okay. I think I might be getting sick though too. I had a cough this morning, my head is kind of achy and my throat is between scratchy and sore. I hope I'm not getting sick. I did talk my parents into going to see Frozen 2 on Sunday (it helped that I bought the tickets) so that will be good. I'm just so tired of fighting all these thoughts in my head and fighting these feelings. I just really want a break. I hope this weekend provides the break I need. HUGS to all, Kit

Hugs,Kit, hope you have a relaxing weekend.

Give me strength today.

That is all.

Today in a truly awkward end-of-session exchange, got a new stone from Dr. T (I’d given other one back when I terminated). It’s small and cute. I’d asked him to pick one our, and he wandered around the office looking for a good choice. I said I was sorry he had to make so much effort at the end, and he was like, “oh no, you made me stand!” And smiled. Then at the end he asked how I thought that went. I asked if he meant whole session, and he said, “the last 4 minutes.” I said I thought ok—was he ok about it? he said he was.

Paid, bit of small talk, he said to have good Thanksgiving, he was sure I’d do well. I wished same back, he said he appreciated it. And “take care of yourself.”