No T for 13 days

I'm a bit nervous. I'm not going to see either of my T's for 13 days, longer for regular T. Pastor T did offer to talk to me on the phone next week, but I kind of suck at phone sessions, and I knew I wouldn't have time to work on the homework so I was already going to ask him to skip a week. But now that I have, and we are, I'm a bit nervous.

I do have my crisis plan. I know I have people I can text or call if I need to. I just feel a bit nervous now that I'm on my own for a bit. I'm sure it will be fine. At least that is what I am telling myself. I'm just worried. I don't want to spiral. Maybe it will be a good chance to see how well I can cope using the strategies that we have been learning. I hope I don't end up at the hospital.


Just want someone to know how I'm feeling.


Thanks, Kit

Hugs @SlumberKitty I will be on here allot on pc if you need to talk you cam pm me. I don't see my t til after the New Year it really helps to be on pc people here do understand. Hugs

Thank you @Cheryl27 I appreciate that! HUGS Kit

Kit -- I can understand the anxious and worry feelings. You're doing so good coping. I know it's hard, but you can do it! Just remember that your feelings are valid. It's okay to feel anxious.

L is gone for 10 days. I'm also scared/anxious about her leave. I asked my PCP if I could see her next week and do a check-in. Is there anyone who you can do a check-in with? Even if it's just on here.

Keep posting! Know that we're here for you.

Hugs Kit. I know how difficult it is.

*Hugs*. I tend to spiral a bit with "unstructured" time too (I'm not in T, but I'm off work for a couple weeks... so it's just me, by myself, hanging out at home.)

For me, making plans helps... even if the "plans" are just a big old "to do" list of chores around the house. If I don't plan, I don't get much done and end up slipping into depression and spending the day in bed, playing on my kindle.

It's not perfect (I'm still not getting as much done as I want!) but... it creates a little structure.

It sounds like you've got some resources and people to talk to (plus, you can come here!) - so that's really good too!

Hi Kit-i hope you post here if you need help or distraction.

Hi Kit,

I feel the same way with not seeing my T until the 2nd or my psychiatrist until the 6th. I saw my pcp today and will see her partner on the 31st but it's not the same support. I've been trying to keep myself busy. I'm worried about trying to cope after tomorrow is over especially just being in the hospital.

Hi All, Struggling a bit more than I would like to be. I'm wanting to SH a lot. Not even sure why. I think it might have something to do with my sister, BIL, and the children being there at the house. Routines messed up, stress levels higher. Etc. Work isn't a good distraction right now as it is slow and we are running on a skeleton crew, so I don't have much to get distracted by. I feel like I am starting to spiral, but I'm not in crisis, at least not yet. Seriously can't remember why I don't want to SH. Because that is all I want to do right now. Ugh. Not doing the best. Glad I have PC for support. HUGS all, Kit

Kit,

I completely understand. I am in the same boat. EMDR T took toe complete weeks of vacation. T very rarely took vacations (not even once a year) and we had email contact during it. Emdr T takes a few weeks a year off (this year 5) but never two in a row. We don't have contact during vacation. I am adjusting to the one week vacations...but two weeks is really hard. Like many. the holidays are especially hard and not having that support sucks

We are here for you

How's it going SlumberKitty?

Is it stressful, having so many people over at your place? It would stress me out, for sure! Just wondering if there's anything calming that might make you feel better? Or, if you're wanting to self-harm, do you feel like there's physical energy that needs a release? Maybe walking, or jogging, or yoga, or something like that would help?

Do you get along well with your sister? How old are the kids? Do you guys ever play board games (we still do this when I get together with my family! It's a nice way to pass the time, and helps keep us from arguing!).

*hugs and lots of warm thoughts to you!*

Aw Kit, sorry to hear you are struggling. I like guilloche's suggestions

My sister has 5 children between the ages of 2 and 17. They are not very well behaved though. I dont have children so I try not to get involved but its embarrassing when we are out in public and the children are yelling, screaming, hitting, swearing, etc. I just got back from a very stressful trip to Target with my sister and the children. It was so embarrassing the way they were acting in the store. I get along okay with my sister but I really dont like my bro in law. He's an angry person. He yells all the time and treats my sister poorly. He's not abusive but he is controlling. I'm ready for them to go home but they are here until tomorrow. I might go to a friends house a bit later but my Dad and I are taking the 4 oldest to the movies this afternoon. I definitely think all this stress is adding to wanting to SH. They play a lot on their tablets. So we try to play board games with them but they arent too interested except for the 6 year old. I'm hanging in there but my stress level is through the roof. I'm watching TV right now and snuggling with my Moms dog. I want to cry. Hugs all Kit

Oh man, 5 kids...that's tough on anyone, regardless of how well they behave. The fact that they don't behave well must be really awful to be around. I couldn't handle it. Hang in there Kit!

Oh, SlumberKitty. FIVE?!?! That's so many little, uncontrolled, energetic, noisy people to have around. I'd be stressed too! I think anyone would be!

Hang in there. It sounds like today (?) is the last day?

Were you able to visit your friend? Or is that today? (Hard to tell time on the forums!) Hopefully you can find a little peaceful oasis until the family packs up and you get your space back!

*hugs*

My sister and family left about 45 minutes ago. I'm exhausted and depressed. I'm still wanting to SH. I need to get up the willpower to get a shower then maybe I go to my friends. I feel just like climbing back into bed and letting all the negative stuff float out of my body. Thanks for all the kind support. Hugs Kit

*hugs* SlumberKitty. Glad to hear that your sister and small posse of little people have cleared out, and you have your space back. Hope your day gets better from here!

I'm sorry you are still feeling so bad. I hope you went to your friend's house and it helped a bit.