[scarcejoy]

Earlier this week, I ended therapy with my therapist that I have been working with for 1 year and 4 months. I would talk about my issues but he would just listen most of the time. They were not saying or asking things to help me explore why my issues are the way they are or why I do the things I do. I was not feeling any emotional support and empathy for me. I did not feel cared for throughout our time working. It was not a productive space. Every time I left a session, I would feel no hope and no empowerment. After 9 months, therapy became a chore to go to. I am disappointed that this did not work out which is why I was being lenient and was giving time for the therapist to show the quality of their work.

Initially, I saw my therapist for an hour but then I changed that to 30 minutes. I realized that it was not worth my time 3 months ago. If I saw him for an hour, I would have to pay $50 for that session. I did not think their work merited that amount. For 30 minutes that price lowers to $25, which I thought was still debatable. I also lowered the session time because there would be a lot of silence on his part. I would ask him to speak and then they would ask me if I am angry.

For the time being, I am taking a break from therapy. I used these last 3 months as a test run for how life will feel like without therapy. These last 3 months have felt like as if I had not gone to therapy. Life is not perfect but I am not doing terribly bad. I am glad that I am not going to a place where I am was just wasting my time. I am glad that I am not going to waste any more money. I am glad that I am not going to a place where I am not receiving any emotional support and care.

[Yaowen]

My heart goes out to you, scarcejoy. I wish I knew what to say.

[Out There]

Maybe you're exactly where you need to be right now.

[Taylor27]

Hugs just wanted to let you know we are here for you.