I'm in the waiting room at T's office. He comes to get me and we walk down the hall to his office. He locks the door, because he knows that I don't want anyone else knowing how needy I am.
There's no desk, no couch. In the middle of the room is a big rocking chair and a bear rug on the floor (reference to my dream). T sits down in the chair. I walk over and sit on his lap and curl up in a ball. He puts his arms around me and holds me tight. He doesn't let go. He doesn't loosen his grip. He starts rocking me and continues for the fifty minutes. Every so often, he plants a smooch on my head to show that he does care as much for me as I do for him. For fifty minutes, I feel whole, secure, loved. I know he will not abandon me, at least for that time. The bough never breaks . . .

[Kiya]

a current dream or fantasy?

This one is a fantasy.

[ECHOES]

awwwww ((((( Soliaree ))))

um.. can me and my T use the room after you're done?

Sure, Echoes. I think you and your T were on the schedule next!

I was thinking, you know. People who have kidneys that are not functioning properly go in regularly for dialysis.

So, I could go in regularly because I'm not yet whole. I need to go in weekly for that closeness so the emptiness can temporarily be filled. You are welcome to use the 'T'alysis room whenever you'd like

[ECHOES]

T said.. "If I thought physical comfort would be a good thing I would, but I don't think in the long run that it would benefit you."

Oh yeah? Let's test that theory, okay?

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( Soliaree )))))))

Thanks Fuzzy ((((((((Fuzzy))))))))

((((ECHOES)))))
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Sounds good to me! I'm in! LOL