Ask therapist if I can rub her shoulders

Same. I would be crying and my parents would be like, As an adult I'm like WTH? But as a kid, it was just normal. And I wonder why I have issues with crying! The only time I cried with former T was at our last visit and I was just bawling then. I haven't cried with Regular T and I cried once with Pastor T which was awkward. He was like, "Why are you crying?" And I was all, "IDK!"

Yeah, my dad used to say that, too.

The therapist has only mentioned crying once, to ask in shock if I was crying. I sniffled and said no.

The only other time she mentioned anything (it may have actually been the only other time I cried, not sure), she said she thought she was "seeing some emotion from me" which I thought was hilarious.

I would not have used the woman's kleenex (although I suppose I was paying for them). I carried a handkerchief with me to appointments in the off chance that I cried - but I never did. There was really nothing to cry about.

I started drinking and sent my therapist a text. I am very respectful of her time outside of session so she always texts me back. She told me to call her. I told her how I worried about her. I don’t care about myself but I worry about her.

She listened and said we could discuss once in person session are allowed again. I believe the state allows inperson sessions depending on square footage. She said touch was allowed as long as both parties had consent. She sent me a YouTube video about consent.

I agreed she could set boundaries and I had the same limitations. She didn’t say yes or no, but I believe she will give me serious consideration. I am glad she didn’t say no arbitrarily but will at least consider my feelings.

I love my therapist.