[just2b]

I think I will have a hard time reestablishing connection again. She can take a vacation and it happens, sometimes even after a weekend. since its been easier talking to her about feelings in general, and sometimes regarding her, I think its going to be uncomfortable seeing her again in person.

What do you think it will be like for you?

[velcro003]

I definitely think it will be awkward/weird for a little while once I start seeing T back in her office. She'll probably crack some jokes to lighten the mood, though, which will probably help.

[Omers]

Yes. I get to see T in person next week. There are a lot of new rules and boundaries including that we need to be wearing face masks. I am face blind so the mask is going to really throw me visually as well as any impact it has on how he sounds. We will not be able to sit in our usual spots as they are too close together. T is sending out a letter with all the new stuff in it but I know I will be afraid of breaking a rule he thought he put on there but forgot. I will be walking on eggshells.
Usually after a long break or after anything disrupts the connection T and I reconnect through touch. A hug or holding my hand. Then not being able to hug at the end...
Yeh, I am glad I get to go back to his office but there are still going to be lots of parts of this that are going to suck.

[ElectricManatee]

Being with my therapists in person seems more normal than video or phone, so I don't think it will be weird to be in the same room again. But I do think it will take a while to get back into the rhythm of the normal relationship.

That said, I still don't know when I am going to see either of my therapists in person again. Even though some places are re-opening, I am still not planning to leave home for the foreseeable future.

[*Beth*]

I'm concerned about it, too. I will be really happy to see her as opposed to the phone thing, but....it will be awkward - at least at first. I'll hang in there and hope the therapeutic relationship returns to where it was. I was seeing her twice/week; I'm not seeing how I can continue to do that. I don't feel like I have much to talk about. Once a week might be better.

As for wearing a mask during session...I'm anxious about that. Not being able to see each others' expressions, and not being able to breathe well...I'm not getting it.

A new way of being, among many, many other new ways of living. We'll see.

[just2b]

I tried to talk to her about how my chiropractor is seeing people, but I am not ready. I also made a reference to how it will be difficult to see her. I was so dissociated that I am confused now on how the conversation went. I think she was asking like, what is the difference between seeing her and the chiripractor. I said something like, she treats my body and you treat my mind. And then she asked something else, and I think i completely lost to the conversation. It did not go well. I was practically staring off into space, she would ask questions here and there, but I don't remember. I remember her saying that she will be seeing people face to face again but not anytime soon.

In the begining of this, it was an adjustment getting used to and now I just seem to cope with it. I feel like the week goes by and feels like a month, and I see her, and its more so a routine and i am not feeling much. When before the virus, I would look forward to seeing her in her office. I wonder if it is partly the unmotivated desire that I seem to have for everyday things. Lack of sleep, loss of apettite, lack of personal hygiene, less exercise, crying spells, agitated and irritabilty states, and faking it to get through the day. I dont know, just wanted to write.

[Omers]

I saw my T last week and it went well. It was good to see him but we spent a lot of time going over the changes... and you cauldron tell he was a bit stir crazy and a little too eager to have his first client back in the office. He should be more chill this week.

[ScarletPimpernel]

I've gotten to see L twice now since this whole virus thing. Once in April and just last week. It's very awkward at first for me. Everything looks the same, but it feels different too. It took a little bit of time getting reacquainted with her and the space. And then when session was over, a wave of sadness took over because I never know when the next time I'll see her will be. We're supposed to talk next Wednesday about maybe doing in person more often than once a month. I would love to go back to twice a week, but I don't think she'll be up for that. At least she seems willing to do more often.