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Elder
Member Since Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
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#281
I have so much too work for and I'm fighting the changes. I need to figure out a self care morning routine.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Member
Member Since Mar 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 876
11 601 hugs
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#282
I’m not ok. I don’t wanna be here anymore, but I don’t want to hurt anyone. I feel worthless though, so would I really be hurting anyone by disappearing?
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ElectricManatee, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Member
Member Since Mar 2020
Location: Wales
Posts: 197
4 269 hugs
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#283
Ok I was wrong. Sorry.
Last edited by MissUdy; Jul 06, 2020 at 07:41 AM.. |
Lemoncake, SlumberKitty
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,700
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6 10.2k hugs
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#284
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
SlumberKitty
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LonesomeTonight, SummerTime12
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Elder
Member Since Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
14 101 hugs
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#285
I feel resentment towards God, and all those that have hurt me, and those that have the potential to burn me. And I then I push people away, keeping them at arms length, not letting them know the real me. I don't even know the real me. I've even pushed myself away. I know it's possible to recover. But I need to work through the resentment to feel recovery. I'm not sure how to let people in, I feel like I haven't done it for 25 years, and I'm 32. I struggled growing up, because I resented my parents for making me move away from extended family and friends. I felt lost, and I lost out on opportunities to make connections. Help me!
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,239
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#286
well, well, well. apparently i was ready to hear everything you said last week. i will be ready to discuss much on the 15th.
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Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,239
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#287
you gave me a **** ton to think about you know lol
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#288
I hate your guts.
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,798
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#289
Guilt is here. Guilt is hard.
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,768
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#290
Dear T,
I'm pretty sure you were crying again today. Wiping multiple tears, it seemed. I generally look away then, like to try to give you privacy, pretending I didn't notice. But I looked at you for a moment today as you wiped what I presume was a tear. It felt we connected for a moment there, even though neither of us said anything. And then we went on to talking about other things. But I felt it, the empathy. And it wasn't like you were really trying to hide it. It was like you let me see you, for a moment. Love, LT |
SlumberKitty
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,700
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#291
2 hours and 22 mins to go.
I hope you bring an umbrella. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
LonesomeTonight, LostOnTheTrail, SlumberKitty
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,239
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#292
i kept trying to talk to you in my head last night to tell you something and my mind kept wandering and i'd try again and next thing i knew it was morning. hmm.
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Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, MissUdy, SlumberKitty
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329
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#293
Dear T. I need you today. I talk to you Saturday. I'm sure I'll be fine until then. My mood is low. My energy level is low. I feel particularly crappy. We are back to furloughing two days a week. Sigh. I don't want to be furloughed. I was feeling crappy even before that. Now I'm just crappy and worried. Well the Xanax is helping with the anxiety. I just want everything to stop hurting. Please. Make it stop. Hug Kit
__________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
ArtieTheSequal, LonesomeTonight, MissUdy, WastingAsparagus
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
Posts: 36,226
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#294
I know the hospital wouldn’t be a bad place safety wise right now. But I think I can sleep and then skip my Wellbutrin and call my doctor in the morning. I swear I can make it through the night.
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ArtieTheSequal, LonesomeTonight, MissUdy, Polibeth, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
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#295
Ugh. These damn thoughts and feelings why couldnt I show them today during our appointment? Why do we stir them up a bit but I can't allow them until after our appointment ends?
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LonesomeTonight, MissUdy, SlumberKitty
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Member
Member Since Jul 2020
Location: GTA
Posts: 119
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#296
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I would like to tell my therapist that I am unable to put into words what I doing at each meeting we have, because I feel like I am a different person everytime I see him. |
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chihirochild, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, LostOnTheTrail, MissUdy, SlumberKitty
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,700
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#297
80% likely I'll see you tomorrow.
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
MissUdy, SlumberKitty
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Elder
Member Since Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
14 101 hugs
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#298
I "see" you in 15 minutes. and we can talk about anything, as I'm the only one home. But I'm also at risk for addictive behaviors. I need to plan what I am doing today. But I'm holding myself back. Why?? I blame it on lack of sleep and exhaustion. But I know if I want to stay away from those behaviors I have to do something big to prevent them.
As I am the ONLY person that can stop. T (You) can't do it for me, NO one can. |
LonesomeTonight, MissUdy, SlumberKitty
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,700
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6 10.2k hugs
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#299
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
SlumberKitty
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MissUdy
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,798
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#300
How the hell did I get to the point where I'm scared I'm going to cry every session?
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
MissUdy, SlumberKitty
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