Couch 221: Definitely Spam!

Why do singers think anyone cares why they are singing a song or why they wrote or really what they think about anything. Makes me crazy to go hear a singer and be trapped into listening to them blather on instead of just singing and being done.

In happier news, I didn't blow myself or the house or the pets up when I cooked the alcohol out of my everclear 190 tincture.

Excellent. That would not have immanentized the eschaton.

Though it might have immanentized esophagi and entrails.

Just dont go all Richard Pryor on us.

Oh and now who is being all Freudian, what with the entrails...

The freudians like bodily functions
The ancient romans and greeks (and possibly egyptians and assyrians) more entrail-ish

Not really interchangeable

Opposites attract.

It's certainly no fun working in a place where you are not appreciated.

Music is a singer’s art. It has meaning to them like a painter or sculptor. It is more than just performance.

Maybe it is time for a complaint. You do deserve better.

Chair caved. My value almost doubled overnight!

Still pissed at the university's whole system of providing faculty and staff accommodations, though, and still planning to talk to someone about it if nothing else.

Hi CE!

Had a really nice appointment with T on Saturday. Dang. Every time I think it's time to quit she really earns her pay and I think, how can I quit now?


She was helping me with my hallucinations. Talking me through them. Just trying to help me make sense out of them and not be afraid of them. She really is quite lovely. She was upset that the hallucinations were upsetting me.

Welcome back CE!

Nice to see you around again.

I'm glad session went well with her. When do you see her again?

Glad they caved!

Your value isn't determined by them though.

Two weeks.

I got my Christmas shopping done. I just have some charitable giving to do. I need to wrap some presents but it's nice to be done.

I missed this happening!

Glad your chair caved and understand your still being pissed.


Do you know of any other professors who have had issues seeking accommodations of some sort? Wondering if you could sort of band together to bring about change. Or perhaps you can be the trailblazer.

Ugh, I told Dr. T today, in the midst of talking of my fears about COVID and a winter surge, that I'm worried he would die (say, of COVID) before I am able to see him in person again. To his credit, he handled it very well, saying he found it to be "heartwarming."

I tempered it by saying I have similar fears regarding my friends and family (which is true!) But I still feel a bit awkward and pathetic about it. Yet also sort of relieved to have gotten it out.

Earlier in session I mentioned how I miss actually being in his office (he normally does Zoom sessions from there, and was there today), and he said I'm not the first client to have said that. And that he wonders at times if he'll ever see a client in person there again and seemed kind of sad about it (he said he has no plans to give up his office, partly because he's stuck in a long lease of the office suite and rents out to like 10 other clinicians of various sorts).

On a lighter note, early in session I mentioned something (not related to him) and said I was concerned he'd judge me for it. Dr. T: "I'd never judge you for it." Me: "OK, good, I was afraid you'd think I was a monster." Dr. T: "Well, it's already been established that you're a monster, so that's not an issue." Me: "Ah, you determined that in the first year or so?" Dr. T: "Exactly."

Started the Amazon show Utopia. It's brilliant so far and would recommend if you haven't already seen it. The story line is a about a comic book giving clues to future events, but there's a lot of gorey scenes + references to viruses so viewer discretion is advised.