[puzzclar]

T asked me to email between sessions since the last one sucked.

I didn't email. My stress level is extremely high. The last session with t, I don't remember much of what was discussed. I just remember which wanting to run after. I did leave the house but I've been in a weird state and haven't wanted to reach out to anybody. The next appointment is tomorrow and I'm freaking out. I don't want to hear t's opinion, as I'm afraid he'll ask what needs to be done... Can I just say for t to give a brain transplant?!

[Yaowen]

Dear puzzclar,

Sorry you are in that situation. Wish I knew what to say that would help. I have rarely been helped by face to face psychotherapy but I not trying to cast shade on the profession. In my case, I think the problem might have been me. I know many millions of people have been helped by therapists. I hope yours will be really helpful to you!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

[Salmon77]

Two weeks is a long time between sessions. Have you ever tried noting down what was discussed after a session is over? Your T might also have notes or be able to help you remember.

In any case, hope the next one goes better for you.

[puzzclar]

He said that I dissociated, and that happens a lot. Today, I hope made a difference, and that I remember what I felt. I want to live by myself, instead of feeling like a little kid getting guilt tripped into thinking I'm bad and worthless. Now it's time to reprogram my mind. The real trick is figuring out what works best for me. There's many options but any option only works when effort is applied. I've applied the minimum in many areas never really digging deep because I felt worthless.