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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
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#161
I'm in a state of overload. April is a season of suck.
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Legendary Wise Elder
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Location: Where the sidewalk ends
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#162
I wish I could email you right now. But I see you tomorrow afternoon. I just need to hang on for a bit.
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catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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#163
My gratitude is immense. I love you as much as I love any friend I've ever had.
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
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#164
Big feels tonight L, huge. I'm feeling so very lonely. Not doing a very good job of not worrying about what you said Friday. Still knowing that I didn't do anything wrong, but if you were serious with what you asked - then it puts into question just EVERYTHING. Like, if you were serious, then YOU DON'T KNOW ME AT ALL. Because I would never do that. I mean what the actual ****? You had to have been kidding. Had to.
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Writing my way through...
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#165
I guess I'll wait til the 16th to find out. Unless you cancel on me and tell me I can't come back before then. Maybe that's what you should do. Maybe part of me wants that?! Goddess I'm broken.
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Aug 2020
Location: England
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#166
Firstly, as I said in my email I’m really impressed by the fact you went to a recording studio and made your own album! I’m probably going to sound vain or like I’m making an assumption now - and I really don’t like doing that - but I do wonder whether the first track was at least partially inspired by our last session before your Easter break. It really spoke to me, even sounded like you’d used some of my vernacular lol. It punched me in the gut emotionally, but I can’t identify exactly how I feel. I broke down a little, though, I can’t deny that.
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
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#167
Current T: I don't know if I should come to see you, if you have any openings, this Saturday or not. I mean, can you even help me with this problem with former T? Someone please take the pain away. I can't handle it anymore. It's only been 5 days of pain. It feels like a lifetime. Kit
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
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#168
Hi R,
I would really appreciate it if you could acknowledge my email before we speak on Thursday. You know what Thursday represents to me, and now this... 'All I can taste at the moment is fear', as a Great British Bake Off contestant observed. Best wishes, Lost __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,798
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#169
Thank you for your message. I feel like I've been at saturation point for far too long.
Everything aches...I'm not sure what I'm bracing for any more, the stuff that has already happened, or what is to come... __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Comfy Sedation
Member Since Sep 2012
Location: the woods
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#170
idk if you were joking or not when you said that at the end of our call
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Always in This Twilight
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#171
Dear T,
OK, I think we'll need to talk tomorrow about that one comment you made. I just worry it's dangerous territory to wade into, because unless you're totally clueless (possible!), you'll know why it's bothering me. Though it's also partly from something I'd shared before (though maybe you blocked that out?) --LT |
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
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#172
I'm feeling so lonely, L. Even with h and 3 cats around me pretty much 24 x 7. I think the entire past year is finally catching up with me or something. I wish I could call you but I just can't because of not being sure if you were joking or not on Friday. I need to just leave it and you alone. I need a vacation so much. so much. I just heard about more changes coming down the pike at work and they are again NOT good for me, I'm going to need to find a new job now for sure and at 58, that thought terrifies me. I'm too old for all of this ****.
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
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#173
I like you a lot but sometimes I feel like you think I’m a bit mentally challenged. But this is only our 4th session so I’m sure we just don’t know each other very well yet. Then again the other therapist either talked to me like I was slow or talked like she seemed annoyed at me.
I don’t have SI or SH thoughts like I used to because. my meds got switched so I think we will have a different relationship then I had with old T. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
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#174
i want to call you and ask for thursday but i'm afraid you'll get annoyed at me. even if it's cuz I totally forgot I had thursday off work when i said we oughta skip friday in case I have side effects from my 2nd covid shot - i still feel like because i said that, i made my bed, as the saying goes, and I need to live with it and not inconvenience you.
but damn i feel lonely. Last edited by ArtieTheSequal; Apr 06, 2021 at 05:36 PM.. |
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Location: the astral plane
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#175
Artie, please call. You’re worth being cared for.
L, I don’t know if I can keep doing EMDR. The more we proceed with this, the more easily and often I’m getting triggered. I don’t think I’m strong enough. |
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
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#176
Hi L. I'm feeling a little bit less lonely tonight. I painted earlier, which is soothing for me, and because I hadn't in awhile. And then my painting inspired a poem. And now it's almost time to go to bed. Why did you have to say what you did on Friday? Why? I'm questioning everything now and my brain is just sure you are going to say you can't work with me anymore because of what you said which would break my heart because it will just prove to me that I should have been the one to leave before you could leave me. Just like I've known all the **** along.
I still love you, anyway, you know. Just be gentle about it, okay? I'm also not going to call because last time I asked to come sooner it seemed like you were booked up. And the way you said on Friday (before the fearful comment) that we should schedule the rest of the month to make sure I was on the books or whatever also made me think your schedule is full. |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
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#177
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Luna's offical mini me.
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#178
I feel like I want to cancel the intro session I have for friday.
In this moment I actually feel disappointed we couldn't work out our last rupture. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Poohbah
Member Since Jan 2020
Location: Somewhere I'm working to leave
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#179
Dear T... please reply to my emails...
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
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#180
I wish that you could somehow magically hear my thoughts right now and text me or something. I'm too damn stubborn for my own good.
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