Couch 230: Decent Communications

My sister and I won £50 with premium bonds today. Total winnings for this year out of 11 months has been £150. Still dreaming of that £1 million pound prize.

If anyone in the UK wants to give hellofresh a go. I have a code that will give you £25 off your first order so you could get your first box with delivery for £0.49p. (You have to select one person three meals though and just remember to cancel after the first delivery if you don't want to continue). I had mine delivered to my sister, i would get behind it if the food was already cooked and you just had to heat it up.

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How much time till your appointment?

Wishing J is kind.

Thanks Lemoncake

I have a little less than an hour and a half to go.

Well done for also trying to get extra help.

I woke up with a sore throat today and I am starting to feel a little achy. The sore throat isn't terrible feeling like strep or anything, just sore enough to be a little worrisome and bothersome. No fever. No chills. No loss of smell or taste.

My mother would tell you to make a honey and lemon drink. Hope you can rest after work.

@Una O

Think you might like this. The US national archives has a channel on youtube.

I watched a training video this morning for work about NPS (net promoter system) and the woman speaking in it, her haircut is uneven. I don't know why that bothered me so much. I kept having to pull my attention back on what she was saying instead of looking at her uneven hair. I only scored 88% on the quiz after because I kept missing things while worrying about her crooked hair.

well lunch break is over. one more video to watch. hope it's a different person this time. or that she got her hair cut.

I want this kitchen!!

My aunt and uncle in canada had their kitchen very similar to this, with the fridge and the food mixer on the right, the sink across the back, the stove on the left. The baking area always looked like dead space to me. We did not have and counter space next to our refrigerator, so i couldnt conceptualize its use!

Oh artie! That is badly performing hair indeed!

My appointment with the Better Help T--J--went pretty well. It was a "chat" session because I was at work and didn't want anyone to overhear. Luckily I have down time!


We talked about my recent relapse with SH and how to prevent that in the future. He gave me an acronym STAR which stands for
S--Stop
T--Think it through
A/R--Act Right

There's a bit more to it but that is the gist. Thing is I think I did that with my relapse and I still relapsed. Okay maybe I did S and T and didn't do A/R. Because I was triggered for at least three hours before I decided to act. But I didn't make the right decision.


He seemed concerned that I was beating myself up. I don't really think so. I am just remorseful that it happened. That I let it happen. That I did it. He said that is normal feelings to have. (yeah me and normal were in the same sentence!)


We talked about the hallucinations some. That was a little more strange. He wanted to know what I thought it would be like if they went away. Completely. I have a hard time imagining that. I think I would be a little scared. I mean some of them are bad but some of them are protective of me. I would miss those ones. He said he didn't know if it were possible, he was just asking. Lol. Made me think of seventh grade, just asking for a friend.


We are going to have another chat session next week. So I will try again. He wants me to read this book (always with the homework). And I'm supposed to write down the STAR stuff and keep it in my pocket so I will look at it several times a day.


I guess it went alright overall. I do feel listened to at least.

Thats the basic layout of my kitchen except i have a cupboard on the wall where the little table is and a long cupboard next to the stove but no revolving shelves which would be nice as my corner cupboard is quite deep and i have to nearly crawl inside to get the back bottom shelf so nothing is really stored down there. I have a stupid non functional shelf where the mixing station cupboard is where i keep the pet and human medications and the cereal. My kitchen is probably about a third smaller than this one.

Also the lady narrator seems to be in a lot of those educational type films i wonder who she was?

She looks exactly like my high school biology teacher. The formed waves, the wire frame glasses, the lipstick, the corset!

I feel kind of puffed up that I noticed some dyed hair at the olympics. I don't care if someone wants green hair - I was more surprised I even noticed.

I screwed something up last week and I still want to slam myself into a wall or beat myself with a bat-it was stupidity at its finest. Reminds me of how I felt with the woman

That sounds like a good thing to talk about in therapy.

Didn't help. I can't remember if the woman said everyone felt that way or that it was resistance. Either way she was useless. Then I needed to bat myself for even telling her.

So I was talking to Dr T today about going back to in-person sessions, which he did last week. He's said a few times that with the delta variant, he's not that optimistic about staying that way. (He's vaccinated, will only see clients in person who are vaccinated, but also opts to not wear masks in the office). Today I mentioned concerns about if he were to go back to virtual. And he said that he kind of regrets going back to in person. If he had to go back to virtual soon (which he's implied), then it would be like a yo-yo effect.

I'm struggling with his comment that he regrets going back to in person. I understand what he means, not wanting to go back and forth. But it also feels like he's not completely comfortable with the idea of clients in the office. Like Friday, I brought my own tissues, and when I used them, put them in my purse (to be disposed of at home). Except one apparently fell out of my purse. And Dr. T and I had said our parting words, I was headed out the door, when he said, "Can you pick up that tissue you dropped under the couch?" Which I went and did, but it was an awkward ending (he had me do that once pre-Covid, too).

But yeah, just having difficulty with his saying he regrets going back in person. Should I just switch to virtual? That had been going well for a long time...

I had my second covid jab a few days ago and i was expecting worse side effects but i have none. I felt terrible after the first one for about a week.

in other news i have bought a second hand office chair for my desk and it is a much better chair than the dining chair i was using before. I am now spending much more time in my sunroom/office and getting back into painting and drawing regularly. I am feeling more like my old self. About time too the other slightly depressed Daffy can piss off.

I know--I am playing with you.

LT, I think consistency is important to you. So if he can't guarantee staying in-person, I'd go virtual.