Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLVII

Mountaindewed · Sep 07, 2021 at 09:00 PM

I’m in my home state where transference T is. I’ve thought off and on about her. I think we passed by her office but I don’t remember. I’m still on autopilot when I’m in my home state. I bought a lot of candy though that reminds me of her. And I went to several places that I’d go to a lot when we were meeting.

So I wonder if I’m trying to subconsciously remember her in other ways. But still try to forget her as well.

I’ve been wanting to email my current T about my dental issues. But I don’t think I’d get much support from her. And if I were to email her it would probably be best to email her after the 2 appointments

Mountaindewed · Sep 07, 2021 at 09:01 PM

I’m glad I’m not seeing you on Thursday. Besides thinking you’ll be unhelpful, today I set up a dentist appointment today because my teeth have gone to hell since Covid started. So this is way more important anyways.

velcro003 · Sep 07, 2021 at 09:04 PM

Hey E. I wish you weren't off this week, as seeing last week was such a big session. Just bad timing, I know. I still can't stop thinking about what you said and how much it makes me feel better about things. A little, anyway.

Hi T! See you tomorrow

Echos Myron redux · Sep 08, 2021 at 05:31 AM

You are not here.

velcro003 · Sep 08, 2021 at 10:25 AM

Ugh, T. I know, my schedule is wide open this week, but i had a set plan around therapy for today. Now what am I going to do?!

See you tomorrow, and really hope nothing changes. Please.

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 08, 2021 at 12:14 PM

I think that more structure might be a good idea.

Mountaindewed · Sep 08, 2021 at 03:59 PM

For lunch today I ate at the last restaurant I went to before the lockdown. It was after a therapy session in March when I was hiding out from my transference T because we had just had a talk about safety. My mom even called her from the restaurant to tell her I was ok. That was my first place I went back to when I was comfortable eating out again in 2021. I felt like I had an agenda. I decided to go there again for lunch and I saw the place where we sat. But after that I honestly was just super hungry and I just focused on my food and didn’t think of her at at all. But then on the way back home I listened to the 3 songs that remind me of her. But I’m ok now.

LonesomeTonight · Sep 08, 2021 at 04:32 PM

Dear T,
Wish I was seeing you tomorrow instead of Friday due to the news we just got from D's school. In different circumstances, I'd have contacted you about it, but I already reached out this morning regarding your health. And it's just a few cases that they say pose no threat to students in school right now, so maybe they got tested over the weekend. Now, if we end up hearing something from the health department that D has potentially been exposed/has to quarantine? OK, then I'm contacting you! But for right now, no.
Love,
LT
PS--Hope you're feeling better. And I really do appreciate your updating me on the other test. And being understanding and accepting of my caring.

Mountaindewed · Sep 08, 2021 at 09:14 PM

I got this weird flutter in my stomach when I was thinking of my current T. I don’t know. But it legit felt like I was about to flood my basement. Like literally. I haven’t gotten that feeling in a few years. This is a fine time to start having a crush on her. When I’m about to be transferred. But honestly I feel like I’m going through menopause or something so my hormones may be out of whack.

Lostislost · Sep 09, 2021 at 02:59 AM

I wish I could talk to you properly. Do you want to talk to me? I don't feel ready to leave or bring my baby yet though. He is beautiful.

I hate to say it but I'm struggling with the birth experience I had. I can forget for a bit but then the pain or memory comes back and I don't know what to do with it. Perinatal mental health have been in touch with me but they don't seem bothered, I can't talk openly to them.

I tried asking M for details of what happened, but I think he was too tired to take anything in by that point. It's like he was at a different birth.

velcro003 · Sep 09, 2021 at 03:15 AM

if i don’t sleep for at least a few hours before i see you, i might be a hot mess. at least i’m on “staycation,” so the sleep bit matters less. it makes for a REALLY long day, T. And you know I can barely handle evenings after work.

LonesomeTonight · Sep 09, 2021 at 05:52 AM

Dear T,
And also wishing I was seeing you today so that I could talk to you about something else that happened yesteray. But I talked about it with a friend and with H, so I'm OK, and we can just talk about it tomorrow (hope you'll be feeling well enough for a session!).
Love,
LT

Waterbear · Sep 09, 2021 at 10:55 AM

From the BACP Ethical Framework - Good Practice:

41. Any unplanned breaks due to illness or other causes will be managed in ways to minimise inconveniencing clients and, for extended breaks, may include offering to put clients in touch with other practitioners.

42. In the event of death or illness of sufficient severity to prevent the practitioner communicating directly with clients, we will have appointed someone to communicate with clients and support them in making alternative arrangements where this is desired. The person undertaking this work will be bound by the confidentiality agreed between the practitioner and client, and will usually be a trusted colleague, a specially appointed trustee or a supervisor.

I am so angry T. You offered me nothing. You left me blindfolded and told me to wait for an indefinite amount of time.

I am still waiting.

comrademoomoo · Sep 09, 2021 at 11:20 AM

Get back to work, you lazy shithead.

RoxanneToto · Sep 09, 2021 at 11:21 AM

I think I know what you’re going to say on Saturday when I show you what I’ve been looking at. I’m not pinning my hopes on anything, either way, but I am going to be amused if you do say what I think you will. I also think you’re going to admonish me in a lighthearted way, tell me to be patient and focus on something else in the meantime.

velcro003 · Sep 09, 2021 at 01:39 PM

hey t-you have such a weird ability to guess things correctly. i still feel kind of bad about what i disclosed, but it was a direct answer to a question, and apparently i can’t outright lie. i secretly agree that it will help me.

see ya next week.

Mountaindewed · Sep 09, 2021 at 02:46 PM

I have a lot to talk about with you on Monday. I don’t want to email you this week. You probably won’t say much about my surgery since you don’t really understand that stuff. But I told you I was worried about my teeth because of my oral coping skills. The dentist told me I’m clenching my teeth due to stress. But I wonder if you are going to say I’m clenching my teeth as a result of these things I use. But I only use them at night. I clench my teeth all the time.

But we will have an interesting discussion on Monday that’s for sure. Maybe you’ll be happy and satisfied with the candy ones I got yesterday.

velcro003 · Sep 09, 2021 at 04:55 PM

also, lol at the clapping. you are kind of hilarious.

comrademoomoo · Sep 09, 2021 at 05:23 PM

I hate you and I hate therapy. What a load of bollocks. Empty sentiments and counterfeit connections. Where are you? What kind of fraudulent love have you created? I need you and I can't contact you. I literally don't know where you are. This is perverse. What shame you should feel for tricking me.

LonesomeTonight · Sep 09, 2021 at 06:15 PM

Dear T,
Your response means a lot, thanks. You could have just said, "Yes, I'll be there tomorrow," but you added the extra stuff. And glad you're feeling better, too, of course.
Love,
LT

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Mountaindewed Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2016 Location: Where the sidewalk ends Posts: 38,748 (SuperPoster!) 8 9,743 hugs given	Sep 07, 2021 at 09:01 PM #242 I’m glad I’m not seeing you on Thursday. Besides thinking you’ll be unhelpful, today I set up a dentist appointment today because my teeth have gone to hell since Covid started. So this is way more important anyways. __________________ I'm Blue
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,368 16 25 hugs given	Sep 07, 2021 at 09:04 PM #243 Hey E. I wish you weren't off this week, as seeing last week was such a big session. Just bad timing, I know. I still can't stop thinking about what you said and how much it makes me feel better about things. A little, anyway. Hi T! See you tomorrow
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Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,171 6 1,836 hugs given	Sep 08, 2021 at 05:31 AM #244 You are not here.
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,368 16 25 hugs given	Sep 08, 2021 at 10:25 AM #245 Ugh, T. I know, my schedule is wide open this week, but i had a set plan around therapy for today. Now what am I going to do?! See you tomorrow, and really hope nothing changes. Please.
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert of my soul Posts: 7,594 (SuperPoster!) 4 6,009 hugs given	Sep 08, 2021 at 12:14 PM #246 I think that more structure might be a good idea.
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,368 16 25 hugs given	Sep 09, 2021 at 03:15 AM #251 if i don’t sleep for at least a few hours before i see you, i might be a hot mess. at least i’m on “staycation,” so the sleep bit matters less. it makes for a REALLY long day, T. And you know I can barely handle evenings after work.
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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 21,612 (SuperPoster!) 9 76.2k hugs given	Sep 09, 2021 at 05:52 AM #252 Dear T, And also wishing I was seeing you today so that I could talk to you about something else that happened yesteray. But I talked about it with a friend and with H, so I'm OK, and we can just talk about it tomorrow (hope you'll be feeling well enough for a session!). Love, LT
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comrademoomoo Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: Toodlepip Posts: 1,837 5	Sep 09, 2021 at 11:20 AM #254 Get back to work, you lazy shithead.
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RoxanneToto Grand Poohbah Member Since Aug 2020 Location: England Posts: 1,692 4 6,991 hugs given	Sep 09, 2021 at 11:21 AM #255 I think I know what you’re going to say on Saturday when I show you what I’ve been looking at. I’m not pinning my hopes on anything, either way, but I am going to be amused if you do say what I think you will. I also think you’re going to admonish me in a lighthearted way, tell me to be patient and focus on something else in the meantime.
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,368 16 25 hugs given	Sep 09, 2021 at 01:39 PM #256 hey t-you have such a weird ability to guess things correctly. i still feel kind of bad about what i disclosed, but it was a direct answer to a question, and apparently i can’t outright lie. i secretly agree that it will help me. see ya next week.
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,368 16 25 hugs given	Sep 09, 2021 at 04:55 PM #258 also, lol at the clapping. you are kind of hilarious.
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comrademoomoo Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: Toodlepip Posts: 1,837 5	Sep 09, 2021 at 05:23 PM #259 I hate you and I hate therapy. What a load of bollocks. Empty sentiments and counterfeit connections. Where are you? What kind of fraudulent love have you created? I need you and I can't contact you. I literally don't know where you are. This is perverse. What shame you should feel for tricking me.
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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 21,612 (SuperPoster!) 9 76.2k hugs given	Sep 09, 2021 at 06:15 PM #260 Dear T, Your response means a lot, thanks. You could have just said, "Yes, I'll be there tomorrow," but you added the extra stuff. And glad you're feeling better, too, of course. Love, LT
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