Couch 234: Ready, Set, Go!

I am definitely depressed. UGH. I didn't want to go to aftercare last night (okay that is how I feel every week) but then (like every week) I was glad I went. It was on "vulnerability" and it had a Ted Talk by Brene Brown.


But I am definitely depressed. There is no question about it. Like at first I thought my mood just might be low but no, it is full blown depression. Sigh. I don't know what to do about it. I am already on two anti-depressants and three anti-psychotics, and one anti-anxiety medication. I see my pdoc on 3/2/22 but I know that I am on the highest doses of stuff so I don't really want to have to change medications. But it literally hurts to breathe. I'd cry if I could cry, if I did cry, but I am not a crier. I'm at work but there is nothing going on to distract me. I just really don't feel too good.


I talk to Julieanne on Monday. But I need a plan for this weekend. A plan to bring some joy into my life. I could work on my painting. That might help. And the Rams are playing this weekend, so depending how they do against the Bucs might make me happy or might make the depression worse. I feel despairing.

Re the air fryer discussion - you can think of an air fryer as a small convection oven. You can prepare the same things in them, cooking times may vary.

Kit, the painting sounds like a good idea, maybe you can also start a second one if you don't feel the theme of the first if that helps?

In therapy news, I gave my T two different types of ffp2 masks (that's the standard over here, similar to kn95) to try out. He only recently started wearing them over ffp2 and has to have a band tied to them in order for them to fit. I've tried various types over the past two years, so I gave him the two we have for me and my boyfriend, they have different fits and bands that go around your whole head.

I expected my T to say no to me offering the two samples. I'm still surprised he didn't. I can't think of any other type of present that a T would accept willingly even though it's only purpose was benefiting himself. Yet, I'm quite pleased he didn't reject it, if he had said something a year ago, I could already have given him samples -.-

Good idea.


The one I am working on is slow going and I am one that enjoys getting done faster. I think it will turn out nicely it's just slow going. I need more time to devote to it.


I might do some pastels or something else that would allow me to express some emotions without having to wait for the paint to dry!

Hugs, Kit. Have you changed meds at all recently? If so, maybe one of those could be contributing to the depression?

Agreed that painting sounds like a good idea. Also, I hate Tom Brady, so go Rams! My team didn't make the playoffs (they did well, then fell apart, in part due to injuries), so I'm fairly flexible in who I root for, other than the Bucs (plus Cooper Kupp helped me win one of my fantasy football leagues, so I'll root for him).

And now Louie Anderson. Not a good day for fat guys of a certain age. I didnt feel so great myself yesterday. I think its the tilt of the earth.

Eta - LT, this may bond us together more than anything SD and i have encountered - SOOOOO not a fan of "TB12"!

Louie Anderson too? Damn.

What is tb12? Tuberculosis?

stopdog I think TB12 is Tom Brady. His number is 12

I had to look him up and I still don't know who he was but I'm sorry it upset you!

Ha! Thats tom bradys brand. Its his initials plus his shirt number.

But yes. And many people are infected, esp in the northeast and southeast.

Has covid changed how we talk about things?

I don't mind Tom Brady. I did not like eli manning at all. I was neutral on peyton. I really hate the manning commentary they tried this year. It is a toss up between hating them as commentators and that jerkwad joe buck

Most definitely

Yeah he was bigger in the 80s and 90s. Really one of the first comedians at that time to address family abuse.

I actually don't mind Tom Brady either, just I hope he loses because I want my Rams to win. I do like Tom Brady more than I like Brandon Stafford. But we'll see how he does in the post-season. Maybe Stafford will grow on me. My favorite Rams is Aaron Donald followed by Cooper Kupp! When Dad and I went to the Rams game we took a picture next to the Aaron Donald sign. And I have an Aaron Donald shirt. Although come to think of it, I do have a Brandon Stafford shirt.

I thought Baskets was a riot.

Yes its populat to hate eli, but somehow joe buck is some kind of golden jerkwad.

I always feel like some ad company is behind the manning bros ads, telling them, "do this. It will be great, funny, whatever" but they are secretly laughing at the nerdy bros behind their backs, not so secretly.

Oh that explains it. I was hardly allowed to watch any TV during the 80's and 90's. Not until I turned 21 really. Now I watch several hours of news in the morning while I am getting ready and depending on the night between zero and two hours of TV. I am becoming a regular couch potato.

I don't follow much sports - I didn't even know the rams still played after leaving stl.

Brandon Stafford? Theres another Stafford? I hate Matthew Stafford. He never looked right to me - no other reason!

Wait maybe his name is Matthew. I don't know.

That's sad. I don't know our own quarterback's first name. See how unimpressed with him I am?

I mean, he has been fairly incompetent, from what I've seen. Not that I can talk, being a Ravens fan...

I believe tb stood for tuberculosis long before brady was born