Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLVIII

LonesomeTonight · Dec 23, 2021 at 07:53 PM

Dear T,
Thanks for today's session. Going to try to focus on the writing and reading and music and dancing and art.

Be safe. Have a good holiday. Rest your brain.

Love you,
--LT

LostOnTheTrail · Dec 24, 2021 at 05:23 AM

Hi R,

I hope you and your family have a wonderful Christmas. I'm beginning to feel hopeful that what we had planned may actually happen. Cautious optimism has been my way, but I'm trying actual optimism on for a change.

See you soon,

Lost

Waterbear · Dec 24, 2021 at 07:05 AM

Dear Ex T,

I hope the gifts aren't too 'sombre' or 'persobal'. I just want to show you that I care about you, too. Your feelings do matter to me. They have always mattered to me, though we both worked hard to keep that fine line at the right place. I think we succeeded, and feel now is the time for that fine line to shift a little.

Happy Christmas my Dear K. Love me

ArtieTheSequal · Dec 24, 2021 at 02:22 PM

Hey L. A week ago right now I was driving to your office for our last session. I hope that you are enjoying your vacation! You didn't say whether or not you were going anywhere, so maybe it's a staycation and you're just resting. Anyway, rest well. You deserve it after putting up with me for 10 years.

I hope you are able to replace my slot with a client who isn't as much work as I have been.

I'm gonna miss sending you my yearly Christmas wish tomorrow. We already wished each other happy holidays before I left last week so I'll leave you alone.

Waterbear · Dec 24, 2021 at 02:31 PM

Dear Ex T,

We really are doing this, aren't we! Thank you for the text, I wasn't expecting it after we already experienced Christmas greetings after I dropped your gifts off.... I'm intrigued to see where this goes... I hope you have a good one, and I hope you are surrounded by love and laughter tomorrow x

velcro003 · Dec 24, 2021 at 02:52 PM

Dear E and T-I miss you guys. Just wish I was back home, though this visit has been loooonnggggg, it hasn’t been TOO bad. But going back home means wisdom teeth removal 😭

ScarletPimpernel · Dec 24, 2021 at 02:54 PM

L,
You still did forget my Christmas email

I'm trying to not be too upset because you did send a ton of other emails to help. Plus, I know you'll send me something on Christmas. I'm also looking forward to our phone call on the 28th. I miss you immensely, but am doing my best to hang in there.

RoxanneToto · Dec 24, 2021 at 02:57 PM

I hope you have a good day tomorrow, I have a feeling it might be better than mine, if I’m honest. There won’t be anyone ruining things or creating unnecessary drama, at least, from this Christmas onwards. Have asked mum about board games, but looks like I’ll have to buy some if I want to play anything with her. Battleship can be done on paper, hopefully she will understand it better when she sees it because she didn’t when I tried explaining it last night (though I have a vague memory of her telling me she used to play it with her dad/brother? I seriously hate how she keeps saying she’s stupid. I know she’s not. God, I really do hate my dad for doing what he did to us).

LonesomeTonight · Dec 24, 2021 at 02:59 PM

Dear T,
I hope you arrived at your destination safely. Barring some sort of complete catastrophe, I intend to not contact you before Tuesday. Well, you'd said if I didn't hear from you Sunday about the Tuesday timing to text you Monday, so I guess I'd do that, but it would just be "Does 2 on Tuesday still work?" And I imagine you'd just say yes or no. But like nothing of substance.

I so don't feel like doing any Christmas Eve festivities tonight, but that's more about being tired/stressed. And not being used to spending much time around people, and then I have to do that both tonight and tomorrow. And I don't have the usual buffer of my sis-in-law tonight, so just us and the parents (and stepparent) in law. I'm sure MIL will be very stressed and anxious. And I will feed off that in some way. And SMIL won't stop talking. But I can get through it.

Love,
LT

velcro003 · Dec 24, 2021 at 03:36 PM

I'm so anxious. I'm so anxious. I'm so anxious. Eff food.

ArtieTheSequal · Dec 24, 2021 at 03:37 PM

A week ago right now were were sitting together in your office talking, winding down to goodbye, and I hadn't yet done my final sand tray. I've been cooking a little bit today (made my famous mashed potatoes so far, and cookies are next). I didn't even notice when 10 am came and went with no reminder text, but I did notice the time when I left last week to come to your office and of course I'm noticing the time now. I'm crocheting now, working on an afghan for my nephew. It won't be done for Christmas, but it will be for sure by his birthday in April so that's good. Depending on how quickly I finish I may just sent it in January as a late christmas.

I miss you a little bit right now. Nothing too bad. Just gonna take a little getting used to, I suppose. I'm happy and settled overall. And I sincerely hope you are having a restful time off, and that you have a joyous holiday season.

LonesomeTonight · Dec 24, 2021 at 04:38 PM

Dear T,
Had a total panicky, sobbing meltdown when it was time for me to head out to my in-laws'. I think it's anxiety about having to be social plus eating in front of them, because anxiety/stress/depression kills my appetite. Maybe some of the agoraphobia coming back, too? Didn't help that I saw our state's updated county case numbers. I think it was also triggered by my roasted veggies shrinking more than I'd expected, so my side dish that was specifically requested looked pathetic (I hadn't made it in 2 years).

H is being incredibly understanding, and I'm just going to stop over there for the gift-opening portion. I'm not sure how I'll get through the festivities at my parents' tomorrow, but I feel like I don't really have a choice there.

Possible trigger:

Is it really screwed up that I was sort of disappointed when my home rapid test was negative, because then I still had to go places? Yes, that seems messed up to me. But I think there's also this element of, if I can just go ahead and have Omicron now, then, you know, it would probably be fine to go to that concert in February. Or do other things. But I feel wrong for thinking that...

I hope you're having a fun, relaxing time. I wish I could talk to you, but there's no way I'd contact you right now. I'm going to let you have your much-needed, much-deserved time away from your practice.

Love,
LT

ArtieTheSequal · Dec 24, 2021 at 10:12 PM

Oh L - I haven't cried like this with missing my grandma in a long time. I didn't anticipate this - not at all. But while watching the church service happening at the church I grew up in, on Facebook just now, such strong memories of my grandma, sitting next to her in church on Christmas Eve, listening to her singing, when the organ started up on Joy To The World, that was it, the dam broke, I started bawling. I miss her all over again and I miss you, too. I suppose it was inevitable. I'll be fine, just gotta feel all the feels for a bit. All is well.

velcro003 · Dec 24, 2021 at 11:23 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Dear T,
Had a total panicky, sobbing meltdown when it was time for me to head out to my in-laws'. I think it's anxiety about having to be social plus eating in front of them, because anxiety/stress/depression kills my appetite. Maybe some of the agoraphobia coming back, too? Didn't help that I saw our state's updated county case numbers. I think it was also triggered by my roasted veggies shrinking more than I'd expected, so my side dish that was specifically requested looked pathetic (I hadn't made it in 2 years).

H is being incredibly understanding, and I'm just going to stop over there for the gift-opening portion. I'm not sure how I'll get through the festivities at my parents' tomorrow, but I feel like I don't really have a choice there.

Possible trigger:

Is it really screwed up that I was sort of disappointed when my home rapid test was negative, because then I still had to go places? Yes, that seems messed up to me. But I think there's also this element of, if I can just go ahead and have Omicron now, then, you know, it would probably be fine to go to that concert in February. Or do other things. But I feel wrong for thinking that...

I hope you're having a fun, relaxing time. I wish I could talk to you, but there's no way I'd contact you right now. I'm going to let you have your much-needed, much-deserved time away from your practice.

Love,
LT

LT: Re: your trigger--I did the same thing before I came back home for Christmas.

velcro003 · Dec 24, 2021 at 11:23 PM

I can do one more day, right?

LostOnTheTrail · Dec 25, 2021 at 06:08 AM

Hi R,

Merry Christmas! Thank you for your patience and understanding this year. I hope that we can soon be in the same room.

Love,

Lost

LonesomeTonight · Dec 25, 2021 at 07:02 AM

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Originally Posted by velcro003

LT: Re: your trigger--I did the same thing before I came back home for Christmas.

Thanks for sharing--makes me feel a bit better that you did it as well! Hope you get through the holiday OK. Hugs if wanted.

Rive. · Dec 25, 2021 at 08:55 AM

What a disastrous session. You outdid yourself.

ArtieTheSequal · Dec 25, 2021 at 11:00 AM

Merry Christmas, L. I hope you're having a restful vacation.

RoxanneToto · Dec 25, 2021 at 02:10 PM

Happy Christmas, T! Hope your day was good. I thought I really was going to get my (secret) Christmas miracle today, but was sadly disappointed. I wasn’t expecting it to happen, it was just a little fantasy and highly unlikely to come true. I know just what you’d say about it all, though, which amuses me.

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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 21,581 (SuperPoster!) 9 76.1k hugs given	Dec 23, 2021 at 07:53 PM #61 Dear T, Thanks for today's session. Going to try to focus on the writing and reading and music and dancing and art. Be safe. Have a good holiday. Rest your brain. Love you, --LT
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Waterbear Magnate Member Since Feb 2016 Location: England Posts: 2,410 8 1,316 hugs given	Dec 24, 2021 at 02:31 PM #65 Dear Ex T, We really are doing this, aren't we! Thank you for the text, I wasn't expecting it after we already experienced Christmas greetings after I dropped your gifts off.... I'm intrigued to see where this goes... I hope you have a good one, and I hope you are surrounded by love and laughter tomorrow x
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,365 16 25 hugs given	Dec 24, 2021 at 02:52 PM #66 Dear E and T-I miss you guys. Just wish I was back home, though this visit has been loooonnggggg, it hasn’t been TOO bad. But going back home means wisdom teeth removal 😭
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ScarletPimpernel Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2013 Location: US Posts: 8,709 (SuperPoster!) 10 7,168 hugs given	Dec 24, 2021 at 02:54 PM #67 L, You still did forget my Christmas email I'm trying to not be too upset because you did send a ton of other emails to help. Plus, I know you'll send me something on Christmas. I'm also looking forward to our phone call on the 28th. I miss you immensely, but am doing my best to hang in there. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,365 16 25 hugs given	Dec 24, 2021 at 03:36 PM #70 I'm so anxious. I'm so anxious. I'm so anxious. Eff food.
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velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,365 16 25 hugs given	Dec 24, 2021 at 11:23 PM #75 I can do one more day, right?
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Rive. Magnate Member Since Sep 2013 Posts: 2,179 11	Dec 25, 2021 at 08:55 AM #78 What a disastrous session. You outdid yourself.
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert of my soul Posts: 7,573 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,987 hugs given	Dec 25, 2021 at 11:00 AM #79 Merry Christmas, L. I hope you're having a restful vacation.
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RoxanneToto Grand Poohbah Member Since Aug 2020 Location: England Posts: 1,692 4 6,991 hugs given	Dec 25, 2021 at 02:10 PM #80 Happy Christmas, T! Hope your day was good. I thought I really was going to get my (secret) Christmas miracle today, but was sadly disappointed. I wasn’t expecting it to happen, it was just a little fantasy and highly unlikely to come true. I know just what you’d say about it all, though, which amuses me.
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