[justbreathe1994]

I met with my old T today. For those that don’t know, I was seeing old T over video while I settle in to a new state. Honestly, during the session, I didn’t really know how to feel. She is open to staying in touch and meeting when I’m home on break from school. I became really attached and codependent with the therapist I had before her, so it means a ton to me that she’s open (and wants) to stay in touch with me. I am really scared of screwing it up by putting off any kind of clingy vibe, but it’s starting to sink in that I’m not going to see/talk to her for probably at least six months since she’s going on maternity leave. I wish I was more honest with how I felt in our session, but I wasn’t that emotional then. I’m not sure what I’m looking for in posting this or if there’s any one out there who can relate to grieving the loss of seeing their therapist every week while staying in touch with them. Also, for clarification, this is not the new therapist I just posted about. I’ve been seeing old T over video while transitioning to the new T who I’ve been having concerns about. I think saying “see ya later” to old T would feel a lot easier if I was comfortable with new T.

[Amandae8787]

I can definitely relate! I cried like crazy when I was going to stop seeing my old T, even though we’ll be seeing eachother for occational updates. For me, the end with old T made me try harder with the new T. As long as I had old T to rely on, I wasn’t really giving new T a chance.

I don’t think I’ll ever feel the same connection with new T but right now (today…) it feels ok. But I had to ”grieve” it for a while.