[Taylor27]

I had a therapy session today it was good. I talked a little about my Grandpa passing away 9 years ago and how painful it is every year. He was my care taker after my Mom died when I was 15. He also abused me sexually and emotionally.
I miss him and yet it just feels so wrong to feel this way. I can't seem to get beyond feeling so guilty for everything that happened to me.
I have tons of nightmares and flashbacks to living with him. It's so difficult to put it into words or describe how im feeling. I hope therapy can help I feel bad for my therapist that I had to change the topic in mid session today. Thank you for reading.

[CANDC]

@Cheryl27 I am sorry for your losses. When someone dies they are gone from our life. But another kind of loss is when we do not have the kind of relationship we want to have with a person. No one should have to live through abuse, especially with people that are supposed to love us when we are most vulnerable.

[smileygal]

Originally Posted by Cheryl27

I had a therapy session today it was good. I talked a little about my Grandpa passing away 9 years ago and how painful it is every year. He was my care taker after my Mom died when I was 15. He also abused me sexually and emotionally.
I miss him and yet it just feels so wrong to feel this way. I can't seem to get beyond feeling so guilty for everything that happened to me.
I have tons of nightmares and flashbacks to living with him. It's so difficult to put it into words or describe how im feeling. I hope therapy can help I feel bad for my therapist that I had to change the topic in mid session today. Thank you for reading.

Glad you had a good session. It's hard to deal with such conflicting feelings when someone who took care of us and we had a relationship with is also someone someone who caused us a-lot of pain and suffering.