Couch 245: STELLA!

LonesomeTonight · Aug 08, 2023, 01:52 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

So I just called the dr to see if I could get on a cancellation list and get this, they had 2 cancellations for this thursday!! and, we got an email this morning that VTO is available the rest of this week so I took that day off and got one of the appointments. Now I'll have some more answers on Thursday afternoon. Whew. I'm so glad I called.

Glad to hear that, Artie! Hope you get good news at the appt.

unaluna · Aug 08, 2023, 02:36 PM

Good luck artie! You know i googled it and they said its usually not bad-serious. Fingers crossed!

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 08, 2023, 07:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

Sending you love artie bean.

I hope your appointment goes well.

Thank you. I'm so glad I called today.

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Glad to hear that, Artie! Hope you get good news at the appt.

Thanks! Me too.

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Good luck artie! You know i googled it and they said its usually not bad-serious. Fingers crossed!

Thanks, yeah I've been googling too....

Lemoncake · Aug 09, 2023, 03:47 AM

Congrats on the poem Art. Sorry I missed that bit.

Lemoncake · Aug 09, 2023, 04:09 AM

I thought I was okay, but the truth is I'm not.

The female trauma therapist I messaged before said she is pretty much away for the whole of august. The other guy who I saw for a one off consult who was really good isn't available.

I could have a session with someone new on friday at 6.45pm. Thinking of doing it, but I feel so hopeless.

I also donated 57% of the money I got back from my Fin refund.

My mental health is so much worse since I stopped gym, don't have the energy to start that up again right now.

The person two doors down has become a DIY enthusiast. I can't open my windows at all. Just constant drilling and thumping.

Lemoncake · Aug 09, 2023, 05:03 AM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

The art club sounds cool. I'll definitely look into that! I don't read, and I don't think there's any walking group around here. I wouldn't even know where to walk around here on my own!

Doing something for myself during usual therapy time is smart! And I'll definitely need reasons to get out of the house since I'll barely be leaving because G is telehealth.

Do you have any local grocery stores? Perhaps it could be just a walk to get a drink from there. Doesn't have to be anywhere in particular.

There's a few art therapists on youtube too. You could buy paint or those mindful colouring books.

Lemoncake · Aug 09, 2023, 05:04 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

I loaded up and moved 10 wheelbarrows full!! That was my goal for this evening. I might go try 2 more after I rest a little/cool off some. Physical labor really keeps me out of my head. Maybe 4.

eta: only did 2 more then took a hot shower. I think I'm tired enough to sleep now without lying awake worrying half the night.

12 loads in one evening is my record so far

I told h when he got home from his job and he said what are you trying to do to yourself? I told him honestly, I needed to DO something so I wouldn't sit on the couch and worry.

Congrats on the heavy labour. Well done this sounds pretty tough though!

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 09, 2023, 03:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

Congrats on the heavy labour. Well done this sounds pretty tough though!

it was hard work but good at the same time; manual labor every evening helped me keep my mind off my medical stuff and tired me out so I could sleep without tossing and turning all night. Tomorrow is the dr and I will get more info then and get my questions answered.

RTerroni · Aug 10, 2023, 12:28 PM

Finally had a chance to pick up my eyeglasses today. I definitely think they help me see better.

ScarletPimpernel · Aug 10, 2023, 01:15 PM

Also about glasses: just came back from my diabetic eye exam. All is good! I kind of failed the distance reading test even with my glasses.

Guess I'll be needing a new pair.

ScarletPimpernel · Aug 10, 2023, 06:42 PM

I think G might be a no-go. We had just established an email response expectation: he replies before 2pm the next day unless he tells me otherwise. I emailed him last night, and he hasn't responded yet... And L has been cc'ed on all our emails, plus she helped me write this last email. So I don't think I did anything wrong? All I did was ask for clarification about when emails get charged and told him his use of the word "cold" hurt me. Maybe L (and I) are just trying to make something work that isn't meant to?

LonesomeTonight · Aug 10, 2023, 07:06 PM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

I think G might be a no-go. We had just established an email response expectation: he replies before 2pm the next day unless he tells me otherwise. I emailed him last night, and he hasn't responded yet... And L has been cc'ed on all our emails, plus she helped me write this last email. So I don't think I did anything wrong? All I did was ask for clarification about when emails get charged and told him his use of the word "cold" hurt me. Maybe L (and I) are just trying to make something work that isn't meant to?

I'm sorry, Scarlet. Is it possible that he meant he'd start doing that once L is on leave and you're seeing him regularly? Rather than now? I'd see what he says in response, too, in case he had a good reason (like an emergency or something). But I can also understand how this makes you doubt working with him. Maybe you could start looking into other options, in case it doesn't work out?

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 10, 2023, 07:17 PM

Back from dr appt: update (trigger for medical stuff)

Possible trigger:

so the gyno doc's next step is she wants me to have a minor surgery to remove the polyp so they can check it for the c word. But I have to get the ok from hematologist I'm seeing tomorrow because I'll have to go off xarelto for a couple days prior to the surgery. she said it will be done in the hospital under general anesthesia. just what i want, to go back in the hospital.

If the guy tomorrow says going off xarelto for a couple days is a no-go, then she said there's another kind of ultrasound they can do that will give them a little more information and then after that, the next step if needed would be the endometrial biopsy (i'm not sure why i wouldn't have to go off xarelto for that but??). So, we'll see what the hematologist says tomorrow. I feel a tiny bit overwhelmed with everything she said today this was a brief summary, but am pretty much handling it okay for now.

LonesomeTonight · Aug 10, 2023, 07:27 PM

Hugs, Artie.

Possible trigger:

I'm sorry you may need some other sort of surgery and don't have any definitive answers. It's good you'll be talking to the hematologist tomorrow, so hopefully you won't have to wait too long.

ScarletPimpernel · Aug 10, 2023, 07:44 PM

Artie! Health stuff can be scary!

ScarletPimpernel · Aug 10, 2023, 07:46 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

I'm sorry, Scarlet. Is it possible that he meant he'd start doing that once L is on leave and you're seeing him regularly? Rather than now? I'd see what he says in response, too, in case he had a good reason (like an emergency or something). But I can also understand how this makes you doubt working with him. Maybe you could start looking into other options, in case it doesn't work out?

I'm kinda resting on L for other options. Maybe the one person I'm trying to stay away from, J, is the person who is meant to be? I wish these next 7 months would fly by and I don't have to deal with this anymore!

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 10, 2023, 10:02 PM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

I think G might be a no-go. We had just established an email response expectation: he replies before 2pm the next day unless he tells me otherwise. I emailed him last night, and he hasn't responded yet... And L has been cc'ed on all our emails, plus she helped me write this last email. So I don't think I did anything wrong? All I did was ask for clarification about when emails get charged and told him his use of the word "cold" hurt me. Maybe L (and I) are just trying to make something work that isn't meant to?

I'm sorry, Scarlet. I don't think you did anything wrong. And I would have been hurt by the use of the word "cold" too.

unaluna · Aug 10, 2023, 10:02 PM

Artie -

Possible trigger:

with a biopsy, they dont remove the item, they just take a sample of it, like thru a needle or a punchie thing like dr lee has on dr pimple popper. Or like how they extract eggs for in vitro? I dont think they knock you out for that, from what ive seen on reality tv.

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 10, 2023, 10:04 PM

Thanks for being here y'all. Sincerely.

ScarletPimpernel · Aug 10, 2023, 10:46 PM

G finally responded! He didn't say why he didn't reply sooner... He did apologize which sounded very sincere. He said his intent was not to judge my character or core-self, and he said it was actually a pleasure getting to meet my in our meeting. And he explained his email boundaries much more clearly: I can write however much I want, but after 3 long replies, we'll either switch to a phone call or session since I'm not willing to pay for emails.

A lot to think about and process.

Lemoncake · 09:13 AM

Fin has a public instagram with close to 7k followers.

When I sent that message last week it was the day after he just got back from Spain. He was Turkey when I wanted that session with his partner. He’s currently now in Switzerland.

He’s also done France x2 this year. (Paris and skiing) .

Reminds me of that Fraiser episode where Niles shows Daph the jewellery he’s bought and she says :

“Who'd have thought the mentally disturbed had this much money?”

Who knew crazy pays.

I know I should stop checking his stories, but I’m not there yet.

Seeing someone new at 5.30pm.

Lemoncake · Aug 11, 2023, 09:00 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Artie -

Possible trigger:

with a biopsy, they dont remove the item, they just take a sample of it, like thru a needle or a punchie thing like dr lee has on dr pimple popper. Or like how they extract eggs for in vitro? I dont think they knock you out for that, from what ive seen on reality tv.

Una you would be an asset to Dr Nows team. You should see if he’s hiring.

Lemoncake · Aug 11, 2023, 09:08 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

Back from dr appt: update (trigger for medical stuff)

Possible trigger:

so the gyno doc's next step is she wants me to have a minor surgery to remove the polyp so they can check it for the c word. But I have to get the ok from hematologist I'm seeing tomorrow because I'll have to go off xarelto for a couple days prior to the surgery. she said it will be done in the hospital under general anesthesia. just what i want, to go back in the hospital.

If the guy tomorrow says going off xarelto for a couple days is a no-go, then she said there's another kind of ultrasound they can do that will give them a little more information and then after that, the next step if needed would be the endometrial biopsy (i'm not sure why i wouldn't have to go off xarelto for that but??). So, we'll see what the hematologist says tomorrow. I feel a tiny bit overwhelmed with everything she said today this was a brief summary, but am pretty much handling it okay for now.

Hope you can do something kind for yourself today to help bring you back to equilibrium.

I found this for you which explains things:

Endometrial Biopsy | Johns Hopkins Medicine

Lemoncake · Aug 11, 2023, 09:11 AM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

G finally responded! He didn't say why he didn't reply sooner... He did apologize which sounded very sincere. He said his intent was not to judge my character or core-self, and he said it was actually a pleasure getting to meet my in our meeting. And he explained his email boundaries much more clearly: I can write however much I want, but after 3 long replies, we'll either switch to a phone call or session since I'm not willing to pay for emails.

A lot to think about and process.

I hope he does work out for you. You deserve a good T.

Lemoncake · Aug 11, 2023, 09:15 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

Thanks for being here y'all. Sincerely.

We love you Artie bean. It’s all the small nothings that’s add up to something.

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