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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert of my soul
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#441
I am still partying hardy on the Island of Anger. It seems the boat left without me, so I may just build a house here.
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#442
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Oh, and that moisture coming from my eyes is from the campfire... I'm not crying.... |
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Human Feeling
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#443
The tussle between faith and grief feels especially brutal this weekend.
I spent most of yesterday trying not to give in to a griefquake, which caught up with me when I went to bed. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Writing my way through...
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Location: In the desert of my soul
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#444
I thought I saw smoke from your campfire. I'll bring the s'mores...
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#445
I'm not going to bother you on the Saturday before Easter, but things suck and I know you'll understand
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#446
I miss you today - I was wondering since you are not my doctor anymore, does that mean I no longer need to call you Dr. S? I could call you by your first name? Does calling you Dr. S - reinforce a role that no longer exists? Or does it really matter? I am not sure. I think words/names make a difference.
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#447
I used that coping skill this morning that other therapist called me weird for. The coping skill my transference therapist thought was amazing and was so happy I found it and told me to use it whenever I get stressed. I'm kinda nervous to tell you. But like it works as well as valium and majorly helps my sleep. I am in a good mood today now that I've started up with it again. I just don't want you to call me weird or creepy.
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Writing my way through...
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Location: In the desert of my soul
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#448
I will let it all go
at some point just not yet. |
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Roses are falling.
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#449
I was actually thinking about booking a one off session for the 10th of April, but my youngest sister messaged today asking if I could send her £5. Sent her the total session amount plus £20 on top instead.
Sixty nine % of this entire year done already without therapy. __________________ |
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#450
Three weeks off for Easter is utterly ridiculous. I have got stuff I want to talk to you about! Important stuff! More important than you sitting about on your arse eating Easter eggs.
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Writing my way through...
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#451
6 weeks, $840 saved. That's a nice chunk of change I'll be able to use on my trip to visit with my son in May.
I'm still trying to figure out how to find the closure I need inside myself. I'm not as angry today. Just still feeling the hurt. I just do not understand what happened. How everything just imploded like it did. What changed? Did I do something wrong and you can't tell me what it was? Maybe there's nothing to understand. **** just happens sometimes. Relationships end. I need to just move on. |
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#452
I am so close to messaging my transference therapist but I know I'd get into huge trouble. Someone talk me out of it
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#453
I'm trying to get my head around the conversation we'll have on Thursday.
I've started making some notes, but I'm wondering whether it might be better to just let it happen. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Always in This Twilight
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#454
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#455
I didn't do it. I realized it would be bad and I also realized I've been with my current therapist close to the whole time I was with my transference therapist. I was with my transference therapist for just under 2 years. With my current therapist its been 1.5 years. I just kind of snapped out of it.
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Always in This Twilight
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#456
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Good! That seems like an important realization about the time. |
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#457
OMG, T. Tomorrow is the day I give you the journal entry I wrote about this incident. my body is going insane in trying to get me the hell away from this topic of conversation. constant nausea, thrown up a few times, my mouth and jaw are swollen and it hurt to eat. My hips/butt hurt from sitting.Too much going on. I am giving y ou the letter and leaving the room. I can't take all of this physical pain anymore. I don't know what else to do
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#458
your emailed apology and added context is just what i need. i know some of it was essentially a repeat of things you said in session last week, but having them in writing to reread and process in my own time and own way is helpful. i wouldn't say this situation is completely resolved yet--no doubt i'll have more feelings and questions come up--but i'm ready to switch focus back to talking about my mother's death. well, as ready as i can be given all the conflicting thoughts and feelings i have about it.
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#459
I think you are just being kinda lazy by asking if I wanted to do zoom today instead of in person. Not that you don't mean well, but then you won't have to go into the office on Thursday. I actually never even mentioned wanting to switch sessions in my email... I was just telling you the results of my blood test mainly.
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#460
I know you don't like me napping but everyone was napping at the same time. We were tired. But thanks for being understanding about that thing that happened today. And not diving super deep into it but talking just enough about it.
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