Couch 248: Curiouser and Curiouser

Jersey 4 · Jun 08, 2024 at 03:46 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Taking Ambien for a few years taught me how to fall asleep. Also limiting myself to one coffee a day. Also just being old and not having to get up in the morning. I was sleep deprived my whole effing life once i started grade school. I had afternoon kindergarten - not a morning person even at age 5!

Any prescription sleep meds don’t really work for me. I metabolize medications really fast (it’s a shame my body doesn’t work the same way when it comes to food) and so a high dose is usually required to put a dent in anything. I really need to get back on Klonopin for Anxiety but I know no new psychiatrist is going to give me the 3 milligrams I need in order to calm down because technically that much should calm down a horse.

Jersey 4 · Jun 08, 2024 at 03:50 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

Hey couch well I'm ready to share this and actually leave the post up this time

. I tried twice before but deleted them

. I think I'm ready now. So, my much-too-long saga with L has officially come to an end, as of 3 weeks ago today. Well my last session was in mid-February, when she said a couple of things that led me to cancel and tell her I needed a break which had been open-ended. But I talked to her on the phone 3 weeks ago and told her it's permanent, that I'm not coming back. It was a pleasant enough conversation, I am relieved that it is finally over, and I (still) feel like I escaped from a cult. I never should have gone back the first time I left. But it's all water under the proverbial bridge now because I am free. I didn't see just how unhealthy that relationship had become for me until after I got out.

Thank you all so much for putting up with my struggles with her over the years.

Your description of saying it feels like you escaped a cult is what it felt like when I ended therapy back in 2016 and never looked back. That’s exactly what it felt like-I just couldn’t describe it. I’m glad you are at peace with your decision to end it with her for good and with a positive conversation.

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 08, 2024 at 04:23 PM

Thanks, Jersey.

Echos Myron redux · Jun 08, 2024 at 05:42 PM

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Originally Posted by WarmFuzzySocks

I think I need to find a new therapist. I like art t but it’s not really helping and I am spending more time in bicycle guy’s town than my own.

I hate looking for a therapist. I wish they had speed therapy events like speed dating.

They did this in London a few years ago. The organisation was called Stillpoint.

Artie - I'm glad to hear you have an ending. It sounds like it's been a long time coming.

Hi Couch. I have a new T. It's very strange, especially as he is completely online. But I'm glad I found him, he's pretty good.

Sending

to those who would like one.

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 08, 2024 at 06:04 PM

Thanks Echos. It certainly was a long time coming.
Hugs back

and I'm glad your new T is good. Online is strange, isn't it? I much preferred phone sessions over online when in person wasn't an option. I hope that you're able to settle into the online thing and that it's helpful for you.

ScarletPimpernel · Jun 08, 2024 at 07:15 PM

Can I ask the couch a question, please? How would you feel if your therapist left her

Possible trigger:

breast pump and breast milk

out?

I'm very triggered. Considering that I'm ultra sensitive about her pregnancy and baby because I can't have my own children, is it wrong to be so triggered?

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 08, 2024 at 07:47 PM

I'm sorry, Scarlet.

Your feelings are not wrong, they're valid and natural and make sense to me. I'd have at least expected her to put it away in a case, surely it came with one, and refrigerate the milk instead of leaving it out.

Jersey 4 · Jun 08, 2024 at 08:10 PM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

Can I ask the couch a question, please? How would you feel if your therapist left her

Possible trigger:

breast pump and breast milk

out?

I'm very triggered. Considering that I'm ultra sensitive about her pregnancy and baby because I can't have my own children, is it wrong to be so triggered?

No one can you tell you that what you feel is wrong. They are your feelings and you are entitled to them. (A little classic DBT for ya.

). That was careless on her part. If it were me I would just mention it next time.

stopdog · Jun 08, 2024 at 09:32 PM

I don't think any feeling is wrong if you have it, but I also don't think it was all that big of a thing for a therapist to leave the items out.

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 09, 2024 at 08:24 AM

ugh. i was just advised I have to be on phones today and all week. BOOOO!!!! this is due to the big change that started June 1, it's a cluster f**k, as big changes usually are, and phones can't keep up. it's crazy because they're pulling my whole team - which means that my team's work is going to back up like crazy and we're going to have to do mandatory overtime once they are able to take us off phones (they just hired like 70 people to take calls).

LostOnTheTrail · Jun 09, 2024 at 08:36 AM

I'm sorry, Artie.

That really sucks.

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 09, 2024 at 08:57 AM

at least she gave us 45 minutes to read over the refresher materials sent out. we didn't really need a full 45 minutes so that was nice. Wish me luck, i'm goin' in haha

I'm adjusting my attitude, and being happy that I have a job and live indoors.

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 09, 2024 at 09:23 AM

Sundays are kinda slow, which is a plus! and another plus is that sometimes we get really nice people calling in - they're not all horrible. I must remember that. I've had 4 calls so far and they've all been nice.

Jersey 4 · Jun 09, 2024 at 10:01 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

Sundays are kinda slow, which is a plus! and another plus is that sometimes we get really nice people calling in - they're not all horrible. I must remember that. I've had 4 calls so far and they've all been nice.

Is your job open 24/7? And is it all remote? I’m looking for a second income after my main job hours.

unaluna · Jun 09, 2024 at 10:41 AM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I don't think any feeling is wrong if you have it, but I also don't think it was all that big of a thing for a therapist to leave the items out.

See its stuff like this that makes us suspect you are a t in a flying squirrel suit.

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 09, 2024 at 12:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Jersey 4

Is your job open 24/7? And is it all remote? I’m looking for a second income after my main job hours.

it is 24/7 for cust svc phones, yes. and mostly all remote. in my area it's all remote because they closed the office we used to have here. i'll pm you a link.

atisketatasket · Jun 09, 2024 at 01:18 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

See its stuff like this that makes us suspect you are a t in a flying squirrel suit.

Yeah, but it’s the second clause that makes her a CBT therapist.

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 09, 2024 at 03:13 PM

well i made it to my 2nd break and only really got reamed badly once so far today. He called me all sorts of lovely names. Thank goodness I have finally learned to regulate my emotions enough so that I don't burst into tears and start shaking anymore when I get yelled at like that. 1 hour and 45 minutes to go today....

ArtieTheSequal · Jun 09, 2024 at 03:26 PM

i mean i'll still be having a glass of wine as soon as 3pm comes around but....

unaluna · Jun 09, 2024 at 04:03 PM

Anybody else watching In Plain Sight all day marathon on Start TV today? I love the main characters. I watched it at night like 2 or 3 times thru, but couldnt watch it again. So the marathon is replaying all my favorites

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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,386 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,839 hugs given	Jun 08, 2024 at 04:23 PM #663 Thanks, Jersey.
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,386 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,839 hugs given	Jun 08, 2024 at 06:04 PM #665 Thanks Echos. It certainly was a long time coming. Hugs back and I'm glad your new T is good. Online is strange, isn't it? I much preferred phone sessions over online when in person wasn't an option. I hope that you're able to settle into the online thing and that it's helpful for you.
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ScarletPimpernel Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2013 Location: US Posts: 8,435 (SuperPoster!) 10 6,479 hugs given	Jun 08, 2024 at 07:15 PM #666 Can I ask the couch a question, please? How would you feel if your therapist left her Possible trigger: breast pump and breast milk out? I'm very triggered. Considering that I'm ultra sensitive about her pregnancy and baby because I can't have my own children, is it wrong to be so triggered? __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,386 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,839 hugs given	Jun 08, 2024 at 07:47 PM #667 I'm sorry, Scarlet. Your feelings are not wrong, they're valid and natural and make sense to me. I'd have at least expected her to put it away in a case, surely it came with one, and refrigerate the milk instead of leaving it out.
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,386 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,839 hugs given	Jun 09, 2024 at 08:57 AM #672 at least she gave us 45 minutes to read over the refresher materials sent out. we didn't really need a full 45 minutes so that was nice. Wish me luck, i'm goin' in haha I'm adjusting my attitude, and being happy that I have a job and live indoors.
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,386 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,839 hugs given	Jun 09, 2024 at 09:23 AM #673 Sundays are kinda slow, which is a plus! and another plus is that sometimes we get really nice people calling in - they're not all horrible. I must remember that. I've had 4 calls so far and they've all been nice.
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,386 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,839 hugs given	Jun 09, 2024 at 03:13 PM #678 well i made it to my 2nd break and only really got reamed badly once so far today. He called me all sorts of lovely names. Thank goodness I have finally learned to regulate my emotions enough so that I don't burst into tears and start shaking anymore when I get yelled at like that. 1 hour and 45 minutes to go today....
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,386 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,839 hugs given	Jun 09, 2024 at 03:26 PM #679 i mean i'll still be having a glass of wine as soon as 3pm comes around but....
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unaluna Elder Harridan x-hankster Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Milan/Michigan Posts: 40,159 (SuperPoster!) 13 67.1k hugs given	Jun 09, 2024 at 04:03 PM #680 Anybody else watching In Plain Sight all day marathon on Start TV today? I love the main characters. I watched it at night like 2 or 3 times thru, but couldnt watch it again. So the marathon is replaying all my favorites
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