Ghosting Xmas T

I quit therapy 4yrs ago after 20 plus yrs during covid.... Part of me got out of the habit of going during the Yr long shut down by T... Plus I'd moved houses and was a 40min drive away now.. That in itself isn't a big deal, but none the less it was another bit that added to my decision to not return..

Another issue was T had said she was returning f2f but would wear a mask.... I would never tell anyone not to wear one but the thought of seeing T hidden was another factor..

. Plus I'm a bit disappointed in how to me she seemed to fall apart over covid.. I worked in a shop so obviously had worked all the way through... I remember in an email once she asked me - was I not afraid? - I replied - obviously not or I'd not be able to work plus I didn't have the financial option... So things got messy and disappointed n my head around T... When the first bits and pieces around covid begun entering the news I remember her saying her son had text her saying people on the tube were wearing masks and she kind of smiled/laughed... I took that smile to mean she thought people were over reacting.. So when she eventually grasped covid was real like many of us she seemed to collapse with fear... I didn't like seeing that in her... Again maybe this is just my perception.... But she took so long to get bsck to f2f.. It was probably more than a year..

Not the point of this post.. I've emailed a couple of times a yewar since I quit... She keeps her reply very short not trying to engage at all and it's me that emails her not the other way around.. .. Fair enough.... She sends a merry Xmas text at Xmas... But this year I don't feel like replying... i won't block her number but Just hope she doesn't... I mean what's the point?...

Thought?

Yeah i would take exception to the fact that she did not immediately grasp the significance of the covid. Otoh, what made it real to me is when Mary's husband's previous fiancee passed so suddenly on Downton Abbey. Still, it tells me this t is still deep in her denial, and that does not seem like a good place for a t to be. I mean, we all keep some denial, but hers is a little too close to the surface for me.