Couch 250: An August Couch

Hugs, Lost...

Oh, I'm so sorry, NP. Hugs, if wanted. Is he moving out of state? Or to a place too far for you to meet in person? I hope he at least keeps the lease through the end of the year.

I agree that video isn't the same. I imagine it could help provide a bit of support. Maybe you could try looking into other therapists now, see what your options are? I know you'd rather be with P. Not sure how it would work financially, if you're using insurance, but maybe you could see P by video once a week and another therapist in person once a week for a bit?

I'm sorry, NP. Sending hugs if wanted.

I've been feeling sad the last couple days for no discernable reason. Don't know what to do with myself. I shouldn't be sad. Tomorrow at this time I'll be on the way to the airport, so ready for this trip and spending time with my sisters. I've no reason to be feeling so down. I don't get it.

I'm sorry you're feeling sad, Artie.

Perhaps there's a writing prompt in there somewhere?

Thanks, Lost. Yes, I think there is. I don't feel much like working today so I'm going to see if I can write it out a bit.

TIL Murder She Wrote had an episode set at the Bates mansion. Oh Jessica!

Yes, he's moving one state over to teach and be a psychologist prescriber too I guess. He plans on keeping one day a week for private practice and keeping his licensure in our state. I don't know what my plan is for therapy. I'm seeing a guy for meds and talk with him. He's nice but I'm not sure I want him to be my regular therapist or not.

I think the idea is starting to sink in and I'm feeling stressed this morning. We're going to continue our back and forth journaling so at least I'll have something tangible to hold on to. We're continuing the 'love' discussion that I talked about in my other thread. I think we're slowly beginning to understand each other on the topic. But it also kind of feels like what's the point. He's just leaving anyway.

From a Buddhist talk I listened to once, you add double suffering when you say you shouldn’t feel a certain way when you already do. . You feel sadness. Sometimes you might not have a why it’s still there though. Journal and from just staying still and you might realise it.

It sounds like a lot of transitions are happening at once, which could definitely add to the stress. Even though you're building some understanding in your journaling, it makes sense that the uncertainty of the future might make it feel bittersweet.

If you closed your eyes and asked yourself if you felt more inclined to stay or leave, what would be the answer.

Thanks Lemon. I started writing a poem earlier and it very quickly began to be about how I thought I would feel a certain way about something but I don't. It did help identify a little bit where the sadness is coming from. The poem needs more work but at least it took my mind off feeling sad and I'm able to focus on work again. On break now. I'll get back to the poem after work. Then I have to finish packing, cuz I leave for Missouri tomorrow morning.

Huh, maybe I'm also already feeling a little pre-sadness at having to leave my sister's next week. Stupid as I'm not even there yet. I'm such a dumdum.

Yahbbut all kids love Dumdums!

Groceries delivered and put up. I got a veggie tray today - ooh the smell of the red pepper was hypnotic! Tis the seasson! I organized a few other things, and now i need a nap!

*curls up on Couch, whimpers*

The hosts of one of my grief podcasts just opened a new membership community.

The platform they're using is the same place that I originally joined thanks to Steve, who hosted his online community there for a while.

He made it so that I didn't have to pay for membership, and then made me a moderator within the community.

I signed up for an art class a while ago but didn't participate in the online community there for griefquake reasons.

I'd forgotten that I already had an account on the site.

I'd like to think the Good Mourning crew will keep the FB group, but I don't know...and I feel weird asking, because I then have to explain.

*insert all the expletives*

Hugs, Lost...

I'm going to try to grow bell peppers and tomatoes in a raised garden bed, well at some point anyway... still a bit of work to do in our backyard before I can plant anything.

10 more minutes til I clock out and then I'm on vacation for 11 glorious days. I finished all the work I was assigned today, and am not going to ask for any more now because it's too close to quittin' time!! I hate halfway finishing something and having to put it back. No OT for this girl today! I am getting my self in a better mood. well my sister is, she texted and said she stocked my room with cheez-its and reeses so it's ready for me!

I hope you have a safe trip and wonderful visit with your sisters, Artie!

All Things Strange and Unusual | Seems legit ?

Stopdog, found a quickie bird ref for you!

Thanks! I'm looking forward to getting away...

Just to challenge this, but why are you a Dumdum? You’re too harsh on yourself for perfectly normal feelings . Well done on identifying the cause. It’s about the sadnessof having to leave again.

Fell off the wagon with Couch Workout Club updates.

Day 47 - three sets of seated core workout exercises.

Day 48 - three sets SCW and a walk.

Day 49 - got my steps in today with a walk around my local wood.

Nice! I got in 16,000 steps Sunday with the help of another concert. About 3,500 yesterday trying to recover from that (but still hit goal, having to do stuff like take out the trash up the block to the corner with H still recovering).

Couch Workout Club day 50!

One set of seated boxing workout, due to 'the mess' and feeling drained after therapy.

Thank you Couch for getting me into an exercise habit.

I didn't mention an imminent trigger date to R this morning, and now I'm wondering whether to email my contact at the helpline and ask for a check in tomorrow (although that's a busy day for the helpline) or just pick up the phone and see who I get.

If I'm going to email H, then I need to decide soon.

Well done on 50 days!

I'd go ahead and ask H if you want a check-in. Worst that can happen is a "no." Probably better to get someone you know than a random person.

And hugs, if wanted.