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Default Oct 23, 2024 at 08:06 PM
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I'm not "allowed" to see you in person tommorow. This thing can kiss my ***.

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Default Oct 23, 2024 at 08:16 PM
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gosh darn it i want to check in with you.
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Default Oct 23, 2024 at 08:25 PM
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6 hours and nothing. You knew I was struggling, but you're not concerned enough to check-in. I hate you. I open myself up to you in vulnerable ways only to be abandoned when I really need you.

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Default Oct 25, 2024 at 01:31 PM
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Dear T,

That was a nice exchange at the end of session today, about my fumbling to fit everything back in my purse. Felt affectionate, like you appreciate our relationship, even if it's complicated and messy sometimes. That's how I feel about it, too.

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Default Oct 25, 2024 at 10:38 PM
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Being a little honest scared you hopefully we can talk about it Monday.

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Default Oct 26, 2024 at 12:23 AM
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I get it now! I'm just a client. My pain stems from my issues (abandonment, neglect, invalidation, rejection, favoritism, and aloneness) or just the unfairness of the universe. No matter what I do, no matter how much of myself I give, you are my doctor and I am just a patient. Everyone is right. It's just a paid relationship. Maybe there's love, but the basis is just that: doctor/client. Nothing more.

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Default Oct 26, 2024 at 03:43 AM
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I can tell I'm over my jealousy because I came into the zoom session with covid on Thursday and didn't care when you said I sounded "covidy." And I was worried my coughing was a distraction so I was trying to keep it quiet.

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Default Oct 26, 2024 at 10:25 AM
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Well my new poetry eBook just became available today. i want to tell you about it but don't worry, I won't bother you. it's something that came about after we last spoke so it's not like I could say "remember when I talked about...." or something. i've been writing a lot of poems lately inspired by edgar allan poe, and one of my poetry challenge friends suggested I do a chapbook of them, which I thought was a grand idea. so as soon as I had 20+ poems I put one together.
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Default Oct 27, 2024 at 10:14 AM
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Dear T,

I imagine it had no meaning at all that you signed the forwarded email about the parenting therapist with your first initial today before your autosignature, but it did feel nice. You were probably replying to other people at the time, maybe friends, where you use that sort of signature, so you probably did it without thinking. So I won't read anything into it.

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Default Oct 28, 2024 at 02:40 PM
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Dear T,

I guess I jinxed things with H by telling you he seemed in a good mood Saturday and that we'd had a nice dinner out, including a good conversation about D. Now he seems angry with me. I thought I was just backing up his comment re: D, but clearly, he thought differently. Why do these things tend to happen shortly after a session? I suppose it's good I'm going out with a friend in an hour...

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Default Oct 29, 2024 at 05:46 AM
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This doesn't feel good. I feel nervous and unsettled. I don't know what I am doing. It's harder to come back into contact with you than it is to let something evaporate.
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Default Oct 29, 2024 at 04:11 PM
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Please send the picture of the cards when you can.
With the turbulence I feel most of the time, I am so surprised that seven basic emotions could cause so much trouble.

I can only hope that I will be able to trust you to hold this anger.

I know too much - I know more than I ever should have known...and now I have to work out how to carry it, separate from my image of my friend Steve.

How?

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Default Oct 30, 2024 at 04:18 PM
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Dear H,

Would it be weird if I sent you the poem I mentioned when we spoke on Monday?
I don't want to appear too familiar with you.

Speak soon,

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I don't want to meet. I should have cancelled. But then that becomes a thing of its own and I don't want that either. Yours, Goldilocks.
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Default Yesterday at 12:45 PM
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Well,

I'm trying to plan my emotional support around Steve's birthday.
I know that we will probably finish for the year around the 12th of December, and H doesn't work on the helpline on Thursdays...

Maybe I can request a check in with N in the lead up.

If everything is already haywire, how can it get more so?

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Default Yesterday at 07:35 PM
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We talked about baked brie from Aldis and we both said we have eaten the whole thing by ourselves and I said I just use a fork I don't even use crackers. You thought that was funny. So I'm not sure whats the big deal with the working out thing.

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