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Old Feb 25, 2008, 04:17 PM
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I had a very difficult session on Saturday. At one point I sort of just freaked out and was sort of hyperventilating and crying and T reached into his desk drawer and handed me a pad of paper and a box of colored pencils. T asked me to draw certain aspects of what I was feeling so I began to draw and color. Although I felt disconnected and in my own world, I felt safe and connected at the very same time just having T there with me, softly teling him some of the things I was drawing as I was drawing them.

Last night I had a very difficult time with cutting. I went a bit overboard. I called T at 11:30 PM because I made a deal with myself in which I decided that if I left him that message I would not go any further with the cutting.

In the message I told him that I just wanted to be with him, coloring and drawing. I told him that he didn't need to call back today because really, I don't think there is anything that he would want to say; or anything he would need to say. Part of me meant that. Part of me did not want to speak with him because I just don't know what to say anymore and I don't know how he could think of anything else to say to me. The other part of me knew it was the stupidest thing in the world to say because I wanted to talk to him more than anything.

He called me this afternoon to "check in." I almost immediately started to cry while on the phone with him and told him that last night I just thought that if I could be with him drawing, I would be okay. I told him how hard it is to be literally two different people-- completely normal at times, and then suddenly a drop in mood and I have the razor in my hand. He took me through some deep breathing over the phone and then told me to go ahead and draw. He said, "You will be here with me tomorrow and I would love for you to bring in some drawings."

He said, "When you draw, just keep me there with you. Keep me with you."

He couldn't have said anything more perfect at that moment.

I'll see him tomorrow at 2.

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Old Feb 25, 2008, 04:29 PM
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You have a good T there.

((((((((((( pinksoil )))))))))) "Just keep me there with you."
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Old Feb 25, 2008, 04:34 PM
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i just melted.
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Old Feb 25, 2008, 05:53 PM
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Melt. Just absolutely melt.

I hope that coloring can help you to connect with him out of session today and help to keep you safe.

Please take gentle care.

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Old Feb 25, 2008, 07:35 PM
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((((((((pink))))))))))

yeah, that's a good t. sorry you had such a rough time =( how are you today? DId you draw?

kiya... off to my own t... wish she'd let us draw.
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Old Feb 25, 2008, 09:23 PM
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I'm .... warm and fuzzy.

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Old Feb 25, 2008, 10:00 PM
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What a powerful statement, Pink. Just reading that makes me feel safer! He is definitely a keeper!
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Old Feb 25, 2008, 11:19 PM
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What a great thing to say to you.

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Old Feb 26, 2008, 12:33 AM
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I sure hope you're feeling a whole lot better today. I would love to try the drawing. Seriously! But, EVERY drawing would look like stick people cause that's all I draw. "Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you."

I'm still lovin' that t. of yours. Have you told him that he has a fan club? "Just keep me there with you."

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Old Feb 26, 2008, 02:44 AM
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"Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you." FANS OF T "Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you."
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Old Feb 26, 2008, 01:02 PM
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Kiya said:
"Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you." FANS OF T "Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you." "Just keep me there with you."

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Hehehehe, so cute. I'm off to see T in about an hour. I have another drawing that I made last night. I'm definitely scared. Not scared of him, but just scared of the things that have been brought up by therapy lately and, well, scared of myself in therapy. Some of the ways that I behave in that room are parts of myself that I have never shown anyone. Maybe he'll just shut up and let me draw for the entire session.
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Old Feb 26, 2008, 01:29 PM
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Good luck on the being able to just draw the entire session :-)
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Old Feb 26, 2008, 11:23 PM
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Wow, I was so impressed with how your T cares about you. I don't know how long you have been with him, but it is really amazing that he should that much caring and concern for you by (1) calling you back and by (2) saying those incredicble words.

So cool....

PS: I am accepting names and addresses of new T's "Just keep me there with you."
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Old Feb 27, 2008, 02:51 AM
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Pink - how'd it go? Didja get to draw the whole time? Scary as it is, it is probably good that you have a space where the other parts of yourself can be - and be safe, heard, validated. Heh - i'm praising you - I'm sooooooooo not there yet. I know it is the ideal - at least that is what i have been told. =)
"Just keep me there with you." hearts to you. =)
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