[taylor43]

My counsellor phone me tonight and told me she was only to do the 12 steos with me and maybe it is best if I got a professtional pyschologist to go the counseling, To me im very sad. My counsellor is trained and she has walked with me for the past six years . I do not know if she was having a bad day or not. I emailed my pdoc tonight.

I know I messed up about not taking my meds and other things. I am back on my meds and trying hard to recover. Tonight I feel like giving up on my meds and isolating I am going on holidays next week wich makes it terrible for me. I am so sensitive to things like this.

I just am in shock over tonights phone call with my counsellor do not know if I can ever get over the upset with my counsellor tonight.

[jbug]

Maybe in your next session with her you can ask her about that? Why she is only going to do the steps with you. Is she only a recovery Therapist?

Jbug

[taylor43]

She does do group recovery groups with using 12 steps. For me it was a shock tonight she was going to use the 12 steps tonight. She doe use it howevere she talks to me and helps me work things out. I just feel isolating to me I understand 12 steps i have a hard time understandstandubg steps. I have faith in a Higher power however the steps seem comfusing to me. I believe in prayer and stuff. Some of the steps are hard for me to work through. I emailed my coubsellor told her about how hard it is for me to work through 12 step

I wish she would re consuder her mind im really taking it a shock she only wants to do 12 step and not counsole me I know the 12 steps works for other but for me it does not for me right bow

I am sorry for venting going on and on If you read this far thankyou for lisentneing

[SpottedOwl]

(((taylor)))

I'm sorry you're having a hard time.

Originally Posted by taylor43

I know the 12 steps works for other but for me it does not for me right bow

It sounds like maybe you agree with your counselor -- that the 12 steps aren't enough for you right now. Some people just do better with 1 on 1 time, instead of or in addition to group work.

Perhaps you can still have her in your life *and* a therapist who can help you in other ways. We all need a wide variety of people in our lives, and the gift of a good therapist can be really amazing.

No need to apologize for venting, venting is good! In fact it is a quite healthy coping mechanism.

[Malachite]

Dear Taylor,

Please, don't feel abandoned. Your counselor may know, she has done all she can do for you, and doesn't want to stand in the way of you getting the help you need. My thoughts are, counseling relationships run their course. After they run their course, the relationship is of limited benefit to the client. The client must move on, and the counselor, must not stand in the way.

I wish you the best,

Larry

[Sannah]

Taylor, I think that the counselor is thinking of your best interest. Maybe her training is only in the 12 step method and she knows that you could benefit from a different approach?

[taylor43]

I did call her back this morning she does still want to see me also do 12 step one on one and I am also allowed to discuss anything I need to still. She wants to help me stay grounded and try to apply the 12 steps in my life and overcome some very unhealthy addictions.