Deeper levels of healing and compassion by T's

My T's are so awesome. I get to a place where I feel like I will never ever get better. The body flashbacks from the kidnapping and assualt kept pouring in and in and in and in and I went to therapy today and just layed on the couch. My T asked me if she could sit by me and I said ok. She then asked if she coud put her hand on my shoulder and I said ok. This is huge for me. I would consider it comfort for the nine year old girl i was and it normally makes me mad. But she said that she absorbs the bad stuff out of my body into her and she would pee it out later . I told her some of the stuff the guy said to me that night. I never told anyone ever. It was so hard and I felt so hurt.I tried to let the bad pain flow out of my body into her hand. I left feeling kinda better but as I walked to my car I felt i coud breath again and I felt lighter. I had hope and the comfort wasnt so bad it was really really good. I know both of my T's are working so hard to help me. I asked my T if they teach her this stuff in therapy school and she said no she is flying by the steat of her pants???? What ever that means. LOL. But they are so open and honest and thy are connecting with me in a way that is healing me. Therapy school can only teach you so much. Human compassion is to me the biggest healing force in my therapy. I know that some T's dont touch their clients and some clients dont want that, but for me its about being human. Humans are made to connect with others. I used to hate being touched and now it feels so healing. I can feel the energy from my T's flowing and it tells me that they really dont hate me and they dont think I am gross for what happened to me. Telling your yucky stuff to a human who has such a deep level of love and compassion for another human is so healing. most of u know that i had a horriable childhood and early adult hood and when I was small I got all of my nurturing from dogs. I would lay in this box they had as a home with them and lay my head on their side and that closeness of another life I think got me through. So my T's are like that with a dog you can tell them anything or nothing and they just know how you feel by your body energy. Then when you lay with them you release your energy into them and get their energy back and it sooths you and comforts you. Ok I am not saying T's have to be like dogs I am just saying that life is so much more them talking sometimes healing comes in deeper levels. does this make sense? Or am i just weird?

MINIME you really are one fantastic, awesome person. I wish I could reach through pc world and give you a huge hug. (With your approval of course).
You provide me with such hope in working through my own traumas. What an inspiration you are to me as I was feeling rather helpless until I ready your thread.
Thank you Thank you so much for sharing.

MINIME, that is a totally inspirational post. I am so excited for you. You give me a lot of hope And I totally know what you mean about dogs! I feel the same way.

vienna

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I'm glad you have such wonderful T's and that you are experiencing healing.

ktgirl

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It took a long time to build up to the point where I was comfortable with touch in therapy. But I agree with you...sometimes I can feel T kind of "taking" the bad energy out of me when he holds my hand, and I can feel him "filling me up" with strength when he gives me a hug before I leave. It used to freak me out if he would walk across the room to get his appointment book because he had to walk past me and it would change the amount of distance between us, so things have come a long way!!

I am so, so, so, SO glad that you have your wonderful Ts. You deserve to heal and have hope and it makes me feel good when I read about the things they do for you. Hold on to this feeling of hope...

MIMIME,

I am really glad you have reached a point where you can accept this level of nurturing from others. It is nice to hear stories of individuals who have regained things that were stolen from them by others. As a person who still struggles with touch and accepting direct attention from others, your description of your session sounds incredibly intense but very healing. I think it was really cool that your T shared that she was simply responding to what you needed at that moment, and wasn't just following some treatment protocol. This seems to make it more of a real connection to me. It is great that you are learning to not just tolerate this level of closeness, but are actually able to accept in and truly feel comforted by it.

Couldn't agree with you more Mini! I help 5 kids right now in elementary school catch up on their school work. One boy has stolen my heart! He really needed a little extra. I started giving him a big hug after each of our sessions and I think this is helping him more with his school work than actually working with him on his school work! I think this hug must mean to him that he is worthy of love and valuable (my guess with his response, actions, and progress). He has made so much progress both academically and personally/socially. This human connection means so much!

I like your story about the dogs.......

tired thanks so much. Your response made me cry. Look how this works my T is compassionate to me I share it with you guys and it helps others. Thanks for the sweet words. (hug))
Vienna thanks so much it was good to read that.
KT girl thanks
EM thanks so much. I like reading your stories about you and your T, its never boring Im glad your here.
Chaotic you will get there. It tales time and alot of trust.
Sannah thanks for working with those kids.

Yes, it makes sense. You are very eloquent. I had a talk with my T once about energy therapies, the mind-body connection, etc. He said that talk therapies are actually quite old fashioned, and you can move very quickly when touch is used therapeutically to release and give energy. You can get to the same place with talk therapy but it would take way longer. He does a lot of EMDR, which he says has a mind/body component, even though the therapist doesn't touch the client. Your T is following her healing instincts. I am glad you have her and are getting what you need.