[MyHeadHurts]

So last week I wrote about taking one step forward, two back, after my therapist told me he was resigning.

Well, after stressing out all last night, I met my new therapist today... It was AWESOME! I felt we really connected within 5-10 minutes of talking. She validated the feelings I've had since an upsetting event a couple of months ago, so for the first time, I feel like maybe this wasn't all my fault and that my reaction was/is justified.

We're going to meet again next Wednesday, and I can't wait.

Hugs,

MHH

[gimmeice]

((((((((((((((( MyHeadHurts ))))))))))))))))))))))))

I am glad that your appointment went so good.

[chaotic13]

MHH,
I'm glad you found another T, hope it works out for you.

[MyHeadHurts]

Thanks, ((((((( ice ))))))) and ((((((( chaotic )))))))

For the first time in what seems like forever, I'm actually feeling a bit optimistic... hope it lasts!!!!!

Hugs,

MHH

Yay! What great news

I hope your next appointment with her goes just as well

[MyHeadHurts]

Hey all,

So I had appointment #2 with my new T yesterday. It didn't feel to me like it went nearly as good as appointment #1. :-(

I've been on medical leave for over two months. Though there were a number of incidents earlier this year that got me started on the road to depression, I had been coping... until a workplace bullying incident with my new supervisor sent me over the edge. (She started working there just a month or so before I went off on leave.)

Last week, my T seemed to empathize with my situation, and I really felt like my feelings had been validated. She said that something my boss said or did must have struck a nerve with some deeply rooted fear/trauma that I have. (It did.)

She also said she thought that my boss was a narciscistic (sp?) serial bully, and that it sounded like I was suffering symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder as a result of the experience. We talked about what some of those were.

This week, it was like she totally forgot what she said to me last week and at one point, I even felt like she was kind of mocking me. I do tend to take everything personally, so maybe I misinterpreted her comment - I'm not sure.

I'm going away for Christmas, so we don't have another appointment scheduled now until after the New Year. Right now, I don't even feel like I want to go back.

I don't know what to do. Should I cancel the appointment? Should I go see her as scheduled and try and tell her how I feel? (Not sure I can do that... I'm the 'flight' in "Fight or Flight" and would rather just run away from it.)

Any ideas?

Thanks,

MHH

[pachyderm]

Originally Posted by MyHeadHurts

I'm going away for Christmas, so we don't have another appointment scheduled now until after the New Year. Right now, I don't even feel like I want to go back.

I don't know what to do. Should I cancel the appointment? Should I go see her as scheduled and try and tell her how I feel?

Wait until you really have to make a decision? You may feel differently later.

[Angel_of_the_Past]

If it were me...I would leave a voice message telling her how you felt the session went and why. Ask for a call back and see how it goes before you make a decision.

Best wishes,
Angel

[chaotic13]

I tend to agree with Pachy...take a wait and see approach. I know MANY time in my therapy when I T said something that really pissed me off or made me feel like she was deliberately playing games with me. But often several days later... I realize some benefit either from what she said or my reaction to what I thought she said.

Take your time, allow yourself to react to the session, find a silverlining if you can. Leave yourself the option of going or not. If you decide to cancel... give the 24-hr notice.