stupid idiot t

i am so pissed at t. goes away. doesn't plan for it beforehand. so i go to the last session anyway and what do i get? a stupid list to help the "sad and lonely one". he's like "what would you do to help a friend who's sad and lonely?" and i'm like fully shitted off and say how the **** should i know i've never had a friend let alone one who's sad and lonely. so he works on this stupid list and it has **** like: hang out, tell them a joke, garbage garbage garbage. and it's like what the ****? sure if you had someone who was a little lonely now and then and needed a little pick me up, sure a kind word or a joke might help. but he KNOWS thats not what its like. he KNOWS it's not just a bit of sad and lonely. it is miserably alone beyond words. it is curl up in a ball with full body sobbing for hours. completely unable to find a single thing to get up for. completely immobilised. completely takes over everything and its just unbearable. intolerable. he KNOWS this. stupid arsehole. it's alright for him. with his stupid family and stupid friends and probably stupid overseas fun and niceness. he's not the one just left here alone with that intolerable piece of ****.

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T vacations bring up the worst of our abandonment fears, and those parts of us who were abandoned as children come out in full force. Try to remember that T is not gone forever and that he is not the person/s who left you alone when you were young.

Try to let your little parts draw pictures of T or his office. That might help them to calm down a bit. Is there anything nice you can do to feel good--like take a bubble bath?

Take gentle care of yourself. T will come back.

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MissC had some good suggestions. I am sending you loads and loads of hugs.

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"Try to remember that T is not gone forever"...........

oh, dear! but it may be better if he was considering...lol.

Dinosaurs, where did you get this bright spark?

I can relate...

riverx

HI Dinosaurs,

Sometimes I wonder if T's and us speak the same language - I think he was trying to help but got the degree of help wrong I guess its time like these i try to remember my T is human and can stuff up just like the rest of us - I had a similar list given t me for my depression - when I was finding it hard to get out of bed there were suggestions like go to a movie!
hmmm does that involve actually getting up from under the covers LOL - I think so!

If youve had a good relationship with your T up until this then give him the benefit of the doubt - I hope things improve for you and that venting helped get some of the frustration and anger out and over for you. (unless you're like me and keep going over it in your mind that is - which does nobody any good) take care P7

Thank you everyone for nice words. we thought no one would talk to us. feel better now. you know what is really good for angriness? whipper snippering. dino the destructor. there are no smilies for that kinda feeling. was pretty cool though we have 5 acres with lots of long grass and weeds. there are paths of destruction through it now feel good now. we are lots stronger than we were a year or two ago. is good cause it helps us see how far we've come. still gonna tell t how stupid he is though thank you for all you kindness peoples

hahaha we just saw this one. that is what we're gonna write to t

What is that?

I remember whipper-snapper, but I do not see how that fits what you mean...

i don't know what else it can be called. but it is like a long metal stick with handles you hold on to and a petrol kinda engine. at the end is a round bit that spins around really fast and has plastic cord hanging out. you sweep it back and forth through the grass and cause it spins so fast it cuts the grass for you. google tells me another name for it is brush cutter. maybe line trimmer, but i don't know what one of them is.

it is very loud and scary. had glasses and face guard and long clothes and leg protectors and gloves and ok i am a scardie cat. but was very nice destroying stuff in a good way and seeing all that destruction afterwards. and now i can get into my garden to weed

A bit of anger can get us through Christmas. Not such a stupid idiot T afterall!

Mnay hugs to you (((((((((((((( dinosaurs ))))))))))))

Weed eater, or weed whacker. Maybe those started as commercial names, but in this country at least they are practically generic now.

Dinosaurs, I think I'd be more pissed that I'd been given a "to do list" also...it feels dismissive of your real pain...and yes I've done the curl up and cry forever also...it helps afterwards, but doesn't feel that way at the time.

putting paper through a paper shredder works for me! - a whipper snipper on my third floor balcony hmmm the neighbours might complain and beside that i have no grass! well cat grass in a small container - dont think that counts - glad you got your frustration and anger out - take care P7