[ECHOES]

I called and cancelled sessions for the week. not sure what will happen after that.

[lifelesstraveled]

Originally Posted by ECHOES

I called and cancelled sessions for the week. not sure what will happen after that.

(((Echoes)))

I hope you are okay????

--LLT

[sunrise]

I'm sorry things are so hard right now, ECHOES. Sometime it helps to get some distance for a while to give us space to get a new perspective. I hope that will happen for you and that you will then know what you want to do. Hang in there.

((((((((Echoes)))))))))))),
I hope you're okay. Therapy can be so difficult and painful at times. You're in my thoughts.

[coconut64]

(((((((((((((((((((Echoes))))))))))))))))))))

I hope you're doing well. Maybe some distance will give you the space to think this through. I'm sending lots of peace and strength your way

[MissCharlotte]

OH Echoes,

I am so so sorry you have entered this dark place. You know Echoes you are right. I know exactly where you are. I have cancelled sessions. I have felt the intensity you are feeling right now and the toxicity inside me. One week I just didn't go to one of my sessions because I couldn't. I couldn't face T and I couldn't face me. It all seemed so ugly and I needed to neutralize the poison inside of me.

So, take the time you need. But I hope you will go back, if not on Thursday then at least next week. Because you are right--we are ultimately alone but I think the ultimate lesson in therapy is to learn how to engage on an intimate level and allow ourselves to feel the pain and to love and be loved.
I KNOW you are loveable.

(((((Echoes)))))

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I have told T before that I don't know whether to run TOWARDS him or AWAY from him. Sometimes both feelings are equally strong.

I know, somewhere inside of me, that running towards him is the only way to heal....I've always, always, always run away. I know that I have to do something different, or I'll be stuck in the same place I've always been.

Echoes, didn't you say that the one thing you promised yourself about your therapy this time is that you would always show up?? I am only mentioning that because I am wondering if this is a pattern that you are trying to undo....it is so tempting to fall into our old defenses, whatever they are. They kept us safe for so many years, and their call is so strong sometimes.

I don't know what happened with T....but will canceling solve it?

(((((((((((((((((Echoes)))))))))))))))))))) I know you are in a lot of pain right now, and I am sorry. Whatever you decide, remember to just keep reaching towards healing...it is what you deserve...love, compassion, and healing.

[Kiya]

"ultimate lesson in therapy is to learn how to engage on an intimate level and allow ourselves to feel the pain and to love and be loved." Miss said this and ironically this is exactly what my own T would say - and something about engaging with each other in the midst of things - reaching out and allowing another to reach out to us.
((((((((((((((((echoes)))))))))))))))))))

[searchingmysoul]

((((((((ECHOES))))))))

Thinking of you

[Fuzzybear]

[phoenix7]

please dont cut yourself off from T or us - it's hard when the darkness calls - but we are all here and we will try to help you through - please let us know how you are going P7