[KUREHA]

Ok I got prozac from my doctor last week.
It was my first time seeing him.

Anyway I don't need it - I tried to tell him, but he wouldn't let it go - so I said I'd try.
Since he said it's my choice - but didn't listen when I said No, I feel kind of forced into saying I'd try.

So I told my psychologist that I didn't need to and I would know if I did, but she didn't agree.

I decided I wouldn't take it - so should I phone him and cancel my next appointment with him, doesn't seem much point going to see him now.

[madisgram]

sometimes it's difficult to see why our pdocs and T's disagree with us. i think it would be good to return to the doc and discuss this again with her/him. find out why the pdoc and t both feel this is something you need. i'd be curious if i were you, jme. they may hve a valid reason that you haven't considered.
at any rate let us know the outcome if you feel comfrotable sharing it with us. we do care bout you kureha.

[KUREHA]

Well I didn't even need to go - I went to keep my psychologist happy because she kept asking.

The psychiatrist said in case it gets worse, it's been the same for over a year now, so I don't think so, I'll think about going back and I'll ask my psychologist if she thinks I should.

I don't trust the receptionist there either though, but hopefully that will be sorted if I do go back.

Yeah I'll let you know

[pegasus]

(((((( KUREHA ))))))

I think it would be worth trying the prozac for 6 weeks or so to see if there really is a difference but it is your decision.

It would be worth going back to see the psychiatrist just to let him know how things are going.

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by KUREHA

Well I didn't even need to go - I went to keep my psychologist happy because she kept asking.

It's not your job to keep your psychologist happy. She can manage her own feelings about your decisions. I was too scared and cowed to have a proper "meds discussion" with my former therapist. She told me she would not be able to treat me if I started taking meds, so I never brought it up again because I didn't want to lose her. I wonder if you have felt a similar threat (although the opposite) from your T and that is why you wanted to "keep her happy"? That kind of relationship is not built on trust--I realize that now with my first T. Because of her judgmental attitude about meds and threat to drop (among other things), I could never really have a close relationship with her. I urge you to discuss this with your T so it doesn't undermine your relationship. She needs to provide you with information that you may not have received, as to why she thinks prozac would be beneficial and also to have respect for your autonomy to make your own decision. No matter what you decide, it is good to have all the information, including the views of trusted professionals. And whatever you do decide, you can always change your mind.

[KUREHA]

I'm still going to leave it for now - I still don't think I need them.

Sunrise - yeah it does seem kind of similar, just the opposite way. She's never said she would leave me, but because she keeps mentioning meds, it feels like it's coming.
She is really great though and I am a bit worried about losing her - which is why I went.
I think I will have to talk to her about it.

[ECHOES]

[QUOTEI] think I will have to talk to her about it.
[/QUOTE]

This is a great idea. You get to decide about medication and your T can have a different opinion and that's okay. Ultimately it is up to you.

[phoenix7]

yep discuss it with your T and maybe sethe pdoc if T can convice you its worthwhile - take care P7

[KUREHA]

Thought I'd just bring my old message up.

Anyway I am going back to see the psychiatrist - I'm not taking any medication though.

The thing is though someone else is going to be there, my psychologist told me today, the woman from the early psychosis prevention team is going to be there as well. So I feel really uncomfortable about going now - I don't really want too.

I've only seen the psychiatrist once and I don't know if I can trust him, and now there's someone else going to be there.

[pegasus]

(((((( KUREHA ))))))

I can understand you being apprehensive but these are safe people, they are professionals and they want to help.

[KUREHA]

Yeah I guess you're right.
Just feel kind of outnumbered lol - it's harder to convince 2 people I'm ok - especially when I don't know if they are part of it.

[ECHOES]

You don't have to convince them. They can and will think what they think. That can match what you think or not.
Taking medication is your decision. They may feel it is their professional responsibility to advise you a certain way, but that is about them. What you choose to do is about you.

[KUREHA]

Well I've already decided on the medication - that's a No.

I need them to believe me though - it's unlikely since no one else does, even the police don't - they just phoned my doctor