[savingjanedoh]

Hi. My name is Jane and I have 2 gay ex boyfriends. The first I was engaged to for about 6 months and then broke up with him after we'd been together for about a year and a half. He was "secretly" gay and has never come out of the closet, but his closest of friends (and myself) know the truth. The second was a friend of the first, but was gay openly...until we developed more than a friendship and he thought he might want to be straight..permanently perhaps. And 8 months after the first one broke my heart and I was no longer with the second...I found out they had screwed each other.
Also, the first one had been with me through the family betrayal of my father and much worse, only to find that the two had scarily similar traits.

So to be honest...it's truly gosh darn amazing that I am not mentally screwed regarding any kind of relationship with a man. But amazingly enough, I have found that the more open I am about what I've been through, the more I am able to accept healing.

I hope my story may encourage strength for those who have dealt with hardship and deceit in relationships. The best I can do for myself is not be ashamed that any of this happened to me, because that's exactly it. It all happened to me. And I didnt deserve any of it. The last case I may have somewhat asked for lol, but that doesnt mean I deserved it.

Anyway, if anyone has dealt with something similar, I'd love to hear about it.

It is good you are healing.