I fell in love with a girl in high school, and although she could not return the feelings, she did love me as her friend. After high school, we did not see each other for over 20 years, and I did not think I would ever see her again. As fate would have it, we met again and started seeing each other for the last 6 months. She is just like I remembered her, and we are both in love. But…she has a guy friend that I feel strongly jealous of. He calls every day, and every night. He texts numerous times throughout the day. I do not think there is anything emotional about this relationship, other than just friends, especially since she says he is just a friend. I had tried to dismiss my feelings, but the other day I had a setback. She is a former beautician and I needed a hair cut. Because of the holidays, shopping, and work, she has not had time. However, she conveniently made time to cut his hair. That may seem petty, but it felt like a slap in my face. Had it not bothered me, I would not be writing this. What I believe is, I missed 20 years of this woman’s life and her friend has had the pleasure of knowing her for most of those years. All I know of my girlfriend is 6 months of information. He knows 10 years. I missed so much. I think my jealousy may actually be envy. Last night I told her how I felt about her friend and she seemed surprised. I told her I would fix my jealousy problem, but I don’t know how. I don’t hate the guy, I’m just tired of hearing his name, hearing him call, text, and take time away from me.
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