[bridgie]

I feel like I'm on a schedule. I am giving myself a timelimit. Iv e parayed I've asked for setups iv er gone online nothreing everr worko ut for e. One month one that's all I can take anymore. So easys for some to frwqking move on I want to movee on. I need to move on d and I cnnt keepe. Doing this I jusat don't think is fait never fair. Tire of not being faif. So amonth I'm givig a month that's the end of me

Hello, bridgie. A time limit for what? Do you have a psychiatrist and therapist?

Some recommended resources and hotlines include:

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.suicide.org/
http://www.hopeline.com/
http://www.suicideforum.com/

[bridgie]

I just is just no no tirte of bekignthe hurt one tired of beignt he olone onr. Tired of tnoby caring. All it proves is I'm worthless unlovable o easy to throw away so easy to give p on. So easty to move on after. I took all the bad ewith the good biut for me. Never for me I don't eanna do it anymore. I need square things away.its just too ghard. Jkust rea5 the book just rea. The book. I'll help itl chaneg thingsa no no nothing verchanges. Not dfor same day in day out cvrap crap vrap its just mnot woth it.

Keep on posting, bridgie. What do you need to change?

[bridgie]

I need to change me my core being nobody likes this person. Right now I hate that person. You can't change your core personality. I'm kind caring forgiving help anybody I can. But thta person is garbage. Been thrown away tossed aside as something worthless.

[bridgie]

I want to be a good person. I try. I forgive but don't forget as I should. I have so many positives about me. Yet I still am thrown in the trash as something worthless. No one sees me as the beautiful person I know I am. My friends all say I'm good person cool person. And they love me dearly. But they don't live near me so I'm really all alone. I don't wanna feal like dirt anymore I don't wanna be thrown away anymore. I want to be loved. I don't feel it. I know my friends love me. And at times I even love myself. But right now. I feel less valuable than a pebble that's stuck in your shoe driving you nutz.

Sorry you feel unloved, bridgie. You are a valuable person. How can we help you feel better about yourself?

(((((((((( bridgie )))))))))))

[NuckingFutz]

Bridgie, I am sending you safe hugs. somebody has said mean things and treated you bad. Mind if I just sit with you for a while?

[bridgie]

Byzantine and nucking futz Thank you again for your feed back. I have started to some things for myself. I have the energy which means I'm "up". It won't last forever so I must utilize this time to prepare for the next time. I am pretty much at the point I'm glad he is gone. I've been going back and thinking about all the things that have happened. I needed to open my eyes then. Next time I will watch for red flags.

[NuckingFutz]

bridgie- i know the pain when someone you love hurts you. Yes, it is time to heal and there is no limit on healing. What has happened is not your fault. You need to get away from the abusive one. Do not wait.