How Do I Win Her Back?

First, here is pretty much a summary of what has happened in our relationship.

I am 17 and was in my first actual relationship. I obsessed about every little detail (what she said, what she did, her reactions to certain things I said, my feelings). It ruined my relationship with this girl and we only went out for a month and a half.

Due to all of these thoughts I got overly stressed out and couldn't handle anything. It wasn't the girl, this girl was amazingly nice to me and really cares about me. I also really care about her. But the thing is, I obsessed about being curious about other relationships.

I mainly got curious about relationships because this was my first relationship and I enjoyed how fun it is to see what it's like, also the fact that I could only see her once a week because she has 8 siblings and her parents would be strict about letting her out a lot. This also made it seem like I was following er schedule, which ticked me off. But I mean, I really loved being around this girl but I couldn't enjoy anything because of my obsessions.

Even after we broke up she called me that night to check up on how I was doing. This showed me how much she cares and o don't understand why I would get so selfish. Then once I got out of the relationship I didn't really feel like pursuing anyone else even though I have that curiosity and I could only think about my ex. I don't think I can get over her because he was just so wonderful to me and I miss her so much. Even though I'm less stressed out I realize how good she was to me.

Now, I have talked to her about my feelings and thoughts about the relationship almost every time I have talked to her now which was probably a bad move and she said she's even been getting frustrated with it. I've told her about it 3 times since we've broken up, which was last Sunday. I have told her that I will always be there if she ever wants to date again and that I'm not going to be in a relationship anytime soon either and that if I'm dating someone, I'll still be there because of how much I like her.

Am I pushing her away even more???

She says that she wants to be just friends and has no intentions about relationships right now because she says she feels broken and has been for almost 3 years now because of all her total relationships put together.

But, she has told me before when we first started going out that she thinks that I am different and someone that truly cares, which I am. Now that all this has happened, I feel like I'm not good enough to win her back. She tells me she has no feelings for me because I told her a month into the relationship exactly how confused I was and a month later, we broke up. All the confusion lasted for a month. She said she tried to lose those certain feelings because everything we did to try to improve the relationship wasn't working and she thought it was because I didn't like her for who she was so she stopped trying a bit. She wanted to do this because she knew it was going to end bad and she didn't want to be hurt much more then she really was when it did happen.

Now I feel like I miss her so much and she is just so unique and has a personality that I love and I told her that and that I just want to date her and take things really slow. But she still doesn't want to, she just wants to be friends and she says she would hang out and stuff but she just isn't ready for dating right now and she said that she doesn't know if those certain feelings will come back and that she doesn't want me to be disappointed if they don't.

I like this girl so much and I have no idea what to do to win her feelings back for me. I respect the fact that she just wants to be friends right now and I'm going to do it, even though it's difficult because I don't feel like "just friends".

But if she has said these things, how can I win her back? I know she likes me, but I'm not sure if its the way like she used to.

I just need a way to reboost her feelings towards me in any way possible.

She has stated how she feels and what she wants. There isn't anything for you to do. She gets to decide how her relationships go and you can't make that happen. She is a separate person with separate thoughts, wishes, feelings, goals.

It is not possible to reboost her feelings toward you. She is fine where her feelings are. To attempt to do anything would be out of place and intrusive.

All there is for you to do is to be in touch with your own feelings of loss and grief. They will get better in time.