[Chainer]

*Read my profile for a quick backround on my story*

Recently I found clarity in my life. My graduation was coming up, I was distracted, and letting my inner voice go wild with accusations against my wonderful girlfriend.

I let her down when she was weakest, and I fear I may have hurt her.
After I cooled down, and I talked to a close friend with a deep backround in psycology, and my cousin. Both told me to make a decision. She needs consistancey, and I have been lucky enough for the past 2 years to be the most consistant thing in her life.

I use to worry so much about the trigger that caused her BPD and MDD to act up so badly.

When we first started dating she could only mention the bad things about her ex. Dont confuse this with splitting, he actually was as bad as he sounded. He was manipulative and had twisted my girlfriend even after death. At least thats what I thought.

I was much to worried about what she was saying, not realizing what was going on most of the time. Until mother's day when I lashed out and thought she was the one not doing anything, that I had done everything, and she just wasnt accepting it.

I came to understand how BPD affected her, even though I could not understand her pain - and never will be.

I know what an amazing person she is, and how powerful she can be on her own. We are both in the process of building our adult lives, and I want to share that with her.

In time I hope to have more money to find suitable treatment and therapy for her. For now I am seeking for text and support that will supplement or begin the process in the mean time.

Welcome, Chainer.

The Borderline Personality Forum is here: http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=75
http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/23752
http://www.psychologytoday.com/condi...ality-disorder
http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/e...cle/000935.htm
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/bor...2/METHOD=print

May you both find the path you are meant for.