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this is how bad it is i am so far thrown out of srts by the whole situation that im sinking there is so much back story that i cant even get into it and i feel as if im ok right now but deep down i want to contact baby dad i want to see how he is i want to know how he is doing and im not a bad person but i want him to be miserable because of what he did to me and our son i let it all out at him letting him know this was the last time he could contact us he has no rights with us and to leave us alone i was not very nice about it but after ten years of the same thing over and over disapperaing reappearing same story and the last try we gave it that he totally blew with another child from another woman he claimed was just like a sister to him ha ya right not stupid here and i let him know everything how i felt even about the "inbred" baby i couldnt hold anything in anymore and i feel horrible for saying some of the things i said and i want to check up on him and i dont know why i just want him to be out of our lives yet i am want to know that he is miserable when i think hes not and i feel as if life has already been unfair between us and now its just even worse i have had our son an ill son and myself being ill and we have sort of been happy but struggling all the time never having anything here he has a wife a house and is fighting for the other baby where for us he would leave come back leave come back not really a relationship at all really thats why its so stupid that im even bothered so much and that it hurts so much and that why i want to know how he is doing i used to wish him the best and hope his life was good and things with us would workout a big bunch of cra* wishfull thinking hopless dreaming 10 years later im still a single mother no closer to finding the one and even at this point thinking that i shouldnt even bother just ready to give up
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May 29, 2010, 08:23 PM
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