[Berlie]

ok. Ive got BPD. My reality isnt reality. So what is? Another sign..... abandonment..... my parter has lost intrest in me but still loves me, which leads to another sign..... emptiness!!! Im very lonely!!!!! Am I that disfuctional my parter doesnt want any part of being close to me? How do I get rid of these feelings of abandonment, emptiness and dissociation? I so much would like to have skills that dont hurt others. Im tired of hurting!

[bridgie]

Oh I think I am feeling the same way except I don't think mine is reality. Today I'm not even sure what reality is. If you could talk to your partner about your feelings perhaps that would help. Having you T if you have one give you ideas and just being someine to talk to should help as well. I am sorry you are feeling this way and also that I can't be more helpfull. Sending hugs and hope.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hello Berlie,

I'm sorry you are feeling so confused and sad. It is very hard with despression to map our way through life because we never know from one moment to the next how we are going to be feeling and if we can follow through on thoughts and watery plans that we can tend to make.

It's possible that your partner is feeling depressed too, and I know from experience that my partner is almost as depressed as I am now if not more. So try talking to them. Even though it will be like pulling teeth, you should get an idea of where you stand and what you need to do in order to make things better or change them all together. Good luck with this, but remember you are not alone we are here to support you and help if we can

Rhiannon

[*stardust*]

i feel the very same way as you do. it can seem lonely
my boyfriend of two years, says he is still deeply in love with me but yesterday broke off our relationship basically because i am out of control. he doesn't want to believe i have BP and says i just need better self-control
i feel empty and unreal too
please don't be lonely though