Why does it get like this?
sitting. curled in a ball. trembling. sad. because i percieve that a boy has just told me that he doesnt want to see me again unless it is between his legs.

i slept with him yesterday. after dating for a few weeks.

and today recieved a text. the jist of which said that he didnt want to see me again save for for the physical pleasures.

now i have the thoughts saying "stupid, useless, failure, retard,exposing self to STIs" seeking out the shortcomings. Its not right.

nor is my behaviour clearly.
but i like intimacy and crave it.
and may have confused sex with intimacy
i hate it. it hurts. it feeds the anxiety.

:'(

[Belle1979]

(((georgiegeorge)))

Imtimacy and sex are separate but go hand in hand for me. I crave affection.. cuddles and human touch..
I think sex for women (me anyways) forms a bond with the person... so breaking up or not getting the relationship you want at the end hurts badly.

Lately I have been trying to have social bond to the men in my life and steer clear of it going any further (staying emotionally detached I guess)...

I am sorry you are hurting and wish I could make it all better x

I like you, try to avoid it. but. old habits die hard.

xox

thanks Belle. thanks

[madisgram]

i "appreciate" his honesty but what an ego he has! clearly he isn't able to have a relationship beyond physical. has no depth. glad u weren't under the wrong impression any longer than you were. he's a taker. you don't need that nor deserve it in your life.

((((((Georgie George))))))).....you are a darling lady.You deserve love.That's all you want....you aren't stupid or bad.I hope you can learn to separate this injury from your true value.Just because he has a character flaw ...doesn't mean you need to see it as a reflection of your value and worth.(((((((GG))))))~~Wolfsong~~