[spacecase]

It's been a little over a year since I've graduated and it doesn't seem much has changed, for me atleast. I'm going to a community college and I still have no idea for what. I still don't have a job. I still live with my parents. I only have 2 friends and one of them is always busy so I hardly get to see her anymore.I can't seem to make new freinds. It's like I missed the lesson on how to make friends, I never learned how. I feel so detached from the world, like I don't belong in it. I'm so different from everybody, especially people my age. I don't have a facebook or myspace, I don't party and drink, I know nothing about current popular culture. Everybody just makes me feel like an alien. People that I used to be friends with in highschool have changed so much and it makes me sick to my stomache to think about the people they are now. I don't know why it bothers me so much, they weren't that good of friends. I've just known them for so long. I feel like college turned them into zombies. Their just like everybody else now. I guess I feel like they lied to me, they were never the people I thought they were. I just feel so lonely right now and I don't know how to express it. I want change but I don't want to change who I am, like my former friends did.

I have no idea if that made any sense. Sorry if it didn't.

[Umbral_Seraph]

I know how you feel. I have yet to make any friends in college, and I've started my Master's. It's very difficult to keep friends from high school; you and they are still maturing and figureing out who you are, and people can seem to change alot when you haven't chosen the same path. It's very likely your friends don't think that they have changed; they probably think you've changed.

You're in no way alone in feeling outcast...