[loloinlolipop]

I am new here; I have always wanted to talk to someone about my feelings, as until now I have never really found anyone who I could trust as much. I am 16 years old, and I have rented a small room thing to complete my studies. I am sort of on my own since 6 months now. And 6 more months left! Since I have learnt how hard it is to live on your own, cook for yourself and so on, I now know the value of my parents; which I am very glad for!
Although I believe that I have become more respectful; my family still sees me as ignorant, rude and so on... No, I am not that kind of a person; it's just that I feel different from everyone else in my family, therefore I disagree with them most of the time, which ends up with huge arguments!

Right now my brother is here to visit me; I try to keep him entertained and happy, but he just keeps complaining how I disrespect my parents, and how unwanted I am- even though I know that my parents would never say that, it hurts for me to listen to all that!
So now that he is here, he is actually making me feel worse! He says, that I have got into the habit of staying on my own, therefore I don't appreciate anyone else! Why does he look at everything in such a negative manner? Or is it my fault? Just an hour ago, I was crying my eyes out, locked in the toilet, without my brother knowing; about how the small mistakes I may do today, will cause major negative effects on me and my family in the future- if I AM the bad person in the family, why? Where did I go wrong?

Another thing that really hurts me is that I am 16 years old, and I have still not started on my periods; this may be off-topic; but this also means that I can't even have kids (until yet), which again leaves me thinking, how will I live my life in the future, I have failed to live with my present family, now I don't want NO family to be able to live happily with...

[Lizabelle]

I know that this is only a small answer to part of a big question, but there's always adoption. You don't have to be a birth mother.

[AmorousAngelia]

Oh hun, I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. I constantly have issues with my mom, because no matter what I try to do, she always ends up yelling at me, or slappin me. I'll try to explain something, and she'll think I'm trying to be rude/disrespectful/disobedient. I know how much it can hurt, even though I'm 3 years younger than you. You are NOT a bad person, they just don't understand you. And about the period thing, don't worry about it. I was the youngest in my family (within the past three generations) when I first got my period, and everyone else was around 17 to even 19 when they first started. everyone is different. I know that the fam. can be a pain. even if you dont think you need to, try to explain to them what you piont of view is(in a way that has been reviewed by someone to make sure its not taken the wrong way) and ask them if they can forgive you. You are a wonderful person, therefor you deserve to be treadted wonderfully. ^_^
Warm wishes,
-Vicious